Hiding the cry during anal

it was the first time i had sex with him, he had the biggest dick i've ever had, and at some point i thought "can i that in the ass?". i looked behind upon my shoulder and asked, "put it in my ass". before i could prepare, he had already put it all the way in, all at once. it hurted so bad! he started to pound it hard, all the way out and in, and i could feel a pain that was not in my ass but deep inside my belly. he asked me "does it feel good?", i was already crying but i couldn't let him know i wasn't able to take it, so i just said "harder" and bitterly regretted. he started to pound so hard i couldn't stay on all four anymore and fell laid on the bed. he kept going hard as shit, and i could only focus on hide my crying and not moaning on pain. after some long minutes he finally came deep inside of my ass and said "gosh girl! you definitely can take some dick in the ass". i just nodded my head and stayed laid down looking to the mattress, so he couldn't notice i was crying as he stood up and went to the bathroom.