Whats happening

something strange is going on,

I am straight, i've known that all my life, i like women, i like breasts, women smell nice, women taste good, i like to lick a woman pussy, that's lovely, but ...

I watch porn a lot, women getting fucked good not by a normal cock, but by really thick and long ones, much bigger than mine, i love the faces women pull when they get that big cock in their pussy, or when they get anal fucked by big fat cocks ..

I only got an eye for that big cock, I think they are very beautiful, I fantasize what it is like to touch tegen, and what it is like to lick Ine from top to bottom, and what it is like to stick of, and that he gets pushed deeper into my mouth than I can handle, and then I have to get on my knees, he jerks off, he says now your reward is coming, look at my cock, this is an alpha cock, not that pathetic thing you fuck your girl with, open your mouth ...swallow and go home to your hield diens, next time you bring some lube!

i want to be the girl in the movies i see ..

what happening please help me out! what should I do?

do i need to suck cock, or is it just a fantasy