Prostate orgasm. Can you help me out?

Hello,

This is my first post and I am asking for help, I know it's lame but that's just who I am. ?

I'm trying to have my very OWN prostate orgasm 'cause I've had several since I met my mistress and she helped me out but she's commanded me to have once everytime I meet her. Otherwise she won't let me cum at all. My balls are swollen and aching but even though I try so hard I can't cum without her help... ?

Any advice for someone who can't use anything but his own fingers? ?

Thanks in advance (and sorry if I mispell anything). ?