I'm a total perv Cum Slut

I've had a crush on a relative for almost 20 years. I just want long sessions with him inside me getting me all slippery inside and keeping it in. They say with every ejaculation, 3 million Sperm shoot inside me. I would like to become his to where he says "I own you" and we French kiss and I tell him I wouldn't have it any other way. And then he Fucks and Cums in me again and I put a butt plug in. As he goes out each day I'd like to encourage him to Fuck and get Fucked by other Guys. And I want him to bring others over and pass me around. I'm on PrEP so It turns me on when a guy tells me he just Fried my asshole. I want to have at least one Load in me at all times. Sperm is a type of blood, I need it, it feeds me, it feeds guys hunger to Cum deep inside a Dudes Ass multiple times. Yes, I want to be infected, especially if it is from my relative. I'd like to die with him in me. But I doubt he's ever coming out of the closet. I've been single all my life with my small bubble butt and tight hole. My whole body shakes and I feel like I'm having an Organic Climax whenever a guy is Fucking Loads of Cum in me Seems like no one wants me? I don't act effeminate and I don't speak with a lisp or flip my wrists