Why I Am On Xhamster, An Evolution Of My Wants

Thursday, September 17th, 2020

Hello, and thank you for taking the time to read what I have to say ;)

I'm not here to sleep around, so please don't contact me if that's what you're seeking from a gurl like me-makes it easier on both of us.

So why am I here? I don't know really, I guess I'm hoping to meet a real man. A man who is mature, straight acting but loves the notion of a wo-man like me with a little sweet "package" in her panties, a woman who wants to make a home for her man, a woman who is marriage minded, a woman who doesn't have a lot of strings attaching her geographically and woman who is finally accepting what she had been repressing for her entire adult life.

I don't see myself as a ladyboy, sissy, transgender, transvestite, crossdresser, or any other "term." I am slowly accepting that I want to wear all those things that feel so right on me when I do get the chance to "dress." I want to wear them every day, all day and all night. I want to dress and be feminine.

I don't want to do manly things, that's what men are for. I want to vacuum, clean, do your laundry, cook your meals, sit next to you, or if you want-on your lap, I want to feel you snuggled tightly behind me as we drift off to sleep keeping me warm throughout the night. I'm always cold, and I won't ever have "hot flashes ;)." So you can wrap me in your arms and feel my silky nightgown and soft, smooth skin, smell my subtle perfume, and take-in my entire femininity.

I'm not ready just yet, but I'm preparing myself a little more all the time. I'm learning what my "look" is. I'm learning how to be feminine, and what I want in a husband.

And yes, I know what a man expects from gurl like me, and I'm soooo willing to meet his expectations in the bedroom, car, kitchen, garage, or wherever he needs me to be there sexually for him.

Admittedly my "real life" experience with men is limited, though I've been "practicing" my feminine technique for a number of years now and do not foresee any issues when the time comes for me to be there for my husband and his sexual needs and desires.

I am divorced since 2014. In simplest terms: she cheated and had no intention of stopping. That's not okay, you don't do that to someone you say you love. Someone you've had a c***d with. Someone you've spent 16 years of your life with. No, I don't tolerate lying, ignorance or any bullshit-your word is your bond, better mean what you say and say what you mean.

I have one c***d, otherwise no family ties. I will always be there for my c***d and you will understand and respect that as I will for you.

I live in Northeast Wisconsin and will be available to relocate around 2025. Nothing north of Kentucky, I don't like the bitter cold-snow is lovely and I don't mind it all. 30 Below wind chills are not something I plan on enduring as I grow old.

I don't work anymore, mixed feelings on that, but I live within my means.

You can work or be retired, but I do expect some daily attention from you. ;)

I think that's it. You can contact me here or other sites I'm a member of.


Thank you for reading this far and take care,


Brenda I. Phorman