Short summary

Since *********ce I had a reluctance to talk to girls. I was very shy, I was paralyzed when I wanted to talk to girls.

These problems I think slowly pushed me to find the pleasure of masturbation. If at first I had short paws of a few tens of seconds, I massaged my penis hard to ejaculate, over time I began to imagine sex scenes, to imagine that I had sex with porn actresses or prostitutes.

Then the internet appeared and masturbation sessions were perfected.
I sit for hours on web pages with videos, movies, pictures, porn actresses, I download pictures or movies, I stay for a few more minutes and I take it from the beginning, being careful not to ejaculate too fast. It happens that I ejaculate in half an hour, but also after 2-3 hours.

Usually after an hour I feel like masturbating again (if the context allows).
What happens when I measure up and watch pornography? I become excited, my brain takes me into a world of ecstasy, beauty, purity.

I'm sure normal sex doesn't bring as much pleasure as porn masturbation.

I have 40 years of masturbation and over 25 years of masturbation with pornography. I'm a pretty normal person, I have a memory, I'm not fat, I'm active. But I don't have sex with my wife, unfortunately. She doesn't share my passion.
The answer is that I will not give up the other world on porn either. It is the passion that makes me happy, I forget about scandals, about this idiotic world.
I found the solution to have a full sex life, far beyond what the so-called sex life with a wife or normal girls offers. real sex life is offered by pornstars, porn amateurs, prostitutes, easy women.