Do I look younger?

I've heard this question a few times lately. Actually, I almost haven't changed at all since I was 18 or 19, so I was quite surprised when some of you told me so. Of course, one can't be objective about her/himself, but it got me thinking. And you, folks, might be right. Because when you're in love, you feel like you can do anything. You feel better and you are better. And "better" means you lose what makes you an adult. You lose anger, you lose angst, impatience... Then you recover your innocence, ability to forgive, you're young again. The past doesn't weigh so heavily and the future doesn't seem to be that gloomy. Even if it'll be scary, you're not afraid. You're ready.

I must say I love the state I'm in. I've felt so old since I was 16. I've had always this lust for life, nevertheless there was always something missing. I've kept going for more, going for extremes, exploring everything and anything, jumping from one thing to another, yet I've never been fully satisfied. Until the last year. I've always felt I can do anything. Now I know I can and I will.

Somehow I'm in a revolutionary mood these days. Personally, I've never been afraid of any man and I want to share my strength with others. I don't want good people to cry and feel miserable. And I want them to stand for themselves and never feel powerless again. I know I won't change the world, but... why do I feel I can?

love you all,
Syla