Christmas blowjob

I really wanted a Christmas blowjob. I even asked for one plainly... I got a 1 min blowjob followed by rushed sex on Christmas eve. I figured I should say something so i told my wife how I felt. She apologized then told me that it hurts her jaw and that sex hurts her after a few mins which is why we don't have it as often as she claims she would like.I felt horrible because I gain pleasure from pleasuring her and now I have this information that I am just hurting her. To top it off she asked me to get into bed laid her head on my stomach and while rubbing my stomach... fell asleep. So I didn't get my Christmas blowjob, was made to feel like I hurt my wife when we have sex and was teased with the idea that I might be getting that Christmas blowjob only to get nothing. I am kind of hurt but I guess I signed up for this life. Good luck to all of you out there and remember it's about what you can do for someone else not what they can do for you. Merry Christmas and I hope you get what you ask for this year and give what is requested if you.