Porn lead me down this path
Some people say that pornography is unhealthy, in more ways than one. While others say that it is perfectly normal and a natural way to explore ones sexuality.
It may sound hypocritical of me to say this (I am writing this on a porn site, LOL), but i believe that porn is designed to be enticing , probing our most base urges, and using it for what i can only guess is some sort of gain. It is made so that we come back for more and more. And after we had our fill of our current interests for a while, we seek novelty. And things just made it easier when the internet started having free porn sites just a couple of clicks away. That is how I fell down and down and down.
The analogy for the rabbit hole is fitting here, because over time, and after regular consumption of porn, we become desensitized and seek the next thing to keep going that rush of novelty and horny-ness. To feel the same way like we felt after we saw "vanila" porn for the first time.
This post probably wont be as exciting as the previous ones, as it will be more of a road map i took to show others how i arrived at this stage i am now...a crossdressing sissy in occasional chastity. So lets begin with counting the steps:
Step 1. - vanilla porn
There isn't much to say about this, Seeing a man doing some things to a naked woman, that made my pp hard. And the woman looked like she was enjoying herself very much. My first exposure to this was stumbling upon hidden erotic magazines my father kept somewhere. Liked the rush of not getting caught :)
I was later introduced to internet porn, and started to have hidden folders on my computer to have collections for later use. But then i realized that i have a particular taste and type of porn that i knew exactly on what to look for, for my future interests, as vanilla was not cutting it anymore.
Step 2. - women in lingerie/stockings
At this point, i considered that women are 10 times more sexier when wearing sexy clothing than being completely naked.A stance i hold firmly even today. As it emphasizes their sexy qualities, and i had a particular focus on their legs (not feet). And when seeing stockings, i could get an instant boner by just viewing them. As i could not say that i ever grew out of this phase, as Stockings are more than just a fetish to an article of clothing. as a pair of stockings on their own don't to much for me. but when worn by a already sexy woman, that just made her divine. As stockings are a sort of nonverbal communication that they want you to follow the road up heir legs like a landing strip to her groin to guide my dick in her richly clothed body. This was the longest phase that i enjoyed the most, but it did not completely disappear, more like it evolved, and i started looking for it in other forms that came to a surprise, that the next step was...
Step 3. - Hentai
I must admit, my first encounter with hentai was more funny/entertaining than arousing. And it was a fun little novelty that at the time it was mind boggling that someone would draw porn in the style of the cartoons we used to watch. And the animation was very crudely drawn with silly proportions....until I saw a hentai that had my little fetish (stockings/lingerie) and was very well drawn. I think the name was "Bible Black". The voice acting was more annoying that arousing, but seeing well toned bodies wearing stockings getting mercilessly fucked was a fun time indeed. It also showed these girls in a less presentable light, and some of them even showed signs of submission and some elements of bdsm that looked hot ...but we are getting ahead of ourselves...
Step 4. - BDSM
In this stage i looked at live action porn with bdsm(mostly just bondage) elements and continued to search for more hentai/manga images of bdsm, because i thought that since they are drawings they can be drawn that they love being tied up and be used. little did i know that actual people existed who liked that :) But looking at images,,especially anime you can see all kinds of stuff you could not in real life, since imagination is virtually limitless.. After a period of loving bondage, then came a sudden turn that i was not expecting..
Step 5. - Shemale/Futanari
Imagine that! a sexy woman, with a pretty face, boobs, and a giant throbbing dick. While i saw these images before, i did not take much interest in that, but it was more of a slow creep that made me get to there. That was neatly packaged in my usual fetishes of lingerie and bdsm...now girls just happen to have dicks i guess...how did that work? do such girls actually exist? I knew that there were shemales, but futanari was a bit different that just made me look into that direction to see how this all works. And in some instances i saw very sexy dominant shemales/futanaris dominating another women....and sometimes a man? And some of those men did not look very manly at all. In fact you could say that they seemed very girly, a SISSY, as you will. And in some cases they seem to very much enjoy themselves by being submissive to their partners.
Step 6. - Traps
It is around this time after seeing that it is a genre in itself that i saw the term "sissy" being used. But traps were the complete opposite of what i was looking at this point. Futanaris being strong sexy females with potent cocks...traps were feminine, weak, submissive guys that technically had a dick,,,but were not supposed to use it...they had other ways of attaining pleasure :) . I probably started to consider a change in perspective in porn. As i was switching in fantasizing about fucking a shemale, I started to wonder on how it would feel to be fucked by one?(not a guy tho, that would be gay, LOL) Started thinking about more passive roles, and starting to piece up the things that used to turn me on, now i can apply it to myself, to create myself as my own porn.
Step 7. Sissy/hypno
Then i realized that there were very beautiful guys out there that looked prettier that most girls i dated. But they put in the effort to look like that, Without the need for body altering medication or surgery. They were just hot and sexy because probably as guys, they knew how to push the right buttons on real men, and how to entice them. Imagine having that power, to cause an erection on another man. to doll yourself up so well, that even a straight man would want to use you <3. But for that i probably needed some help from the internet...and funnily enough, there were videos of hypnotizing the viewer into becoming a submissive sissy (something what dominant men and women want). and the thought of being "forced" to become a object of others desires, made me feel very tingly. before i knew it, i started viewing hypno videos fanatically. And while i would like to say that they don't work...they do (feel good). Just thinking about the end-goal of being used by a dominant partner while being a feminized sissy made me leak a little.
(next Step 8. ???)
Who knows? I guess that by that stage, i will probably ditch porn altogether, or as i am slowly realizing is that i am turning into porn for others to enjoy. I know i have a clunky start, but i do hope to be one day a sissy worth jerking off to for your pleasure ;)
What do you guys think? Did you enjoy my little dissection of the steps of how i came to be a sissy? I would like to hear from others on what was their journey like, or the type of porn you like. Either way, I will very much like to hear your thoughts and i wish you all a lovely evening,
kiss,
Dora
It may sound hypocritical of me to say this (I am writing this on a porn site, LOL), but i believe that porn is designed to be enticing , probing our most base urges, and using it for what i can only guess is some sort of gain. It is made so that we come back for more and more. And after we had our fill of our current interests for a while, we seek novelty. And things just made it easier when the internet started having free porn sites just a couple of clicks away. That is how I fell down and down and down.
The analogy for the rabbit hole is fitting here, because over time, and after regular consumption of porn, we become desensitized and seek the next thing to keep going that rush of novelty and horny-ness. To feel the same way like we felt after we saw "vanila" porn for the first time.
This post probably wont be as exciting as the previous ones, as it will be more of a road map i took to show others how i arrived at this stage i am now...a crossdressing sissy in occasional chastity. So lets begin with counting the steps:
Step 1. - vanilla porn
There isn't much to say about this, Seeing a man doing some things to a naked woman, that made my pp hard. And the woman looked like she was enjoying herself very much. My first exposure to this was stumbling upon hidden erotic magazines my father kept somewhere. Liked the rush of not getting caught :)
I was later introduced to internet porn, and started to have hidden folders on my computer to have collections for later use. But then i realized that i have a particular taste and type of porn that i knew exactly on what to look for, for my future interests, as vanilla was not cutting it anymore.
Step 2. - women in lingerie/stockings
At this point, i considered that women are 10 times more sexier when wearing sexy clothing than being completely naked.A stance i hold firmly even today. As it emphasizes their sexy qualities, and i had a particular focus on their legs (not feet). And when seeing stockings, i could get an instant boner by just viewing them. As i could not say that i ever grew out of this phase, as Stockings are more than just a fetish to an article of clothing. as a pair of stockings on their own don't to much for me. but when worn by a already sexy woman, that just made her divine. As stockings are a sort of nonverbal communication that they want you to follow the road up heir legs like a landing strip to her groin to guide my dick in her richly clothed body. This was the longest phase that i enjoyed the most, but it did not completely disappear, more like it evolved, and i started looking for it in other forms that came to a surprise, that the next step was...
Step 3. - Hentai
I must admit, my first encounter with hentai was more funny/entertaining than arousing. And it was a fun little novelty that at the time it was mind boggling that someone would draw porn in the style of the cartoons we used to watch. And the animation was very crudely drawn with silly proportions....until I saw a hentai that had my little fetish (stockings/lingerie) and was very well drawn. I think the name was "Bible Black". The voice acting was more annoying that arousing, but seeing well toned bodies wearing stockings getting mercilessly fucked was a fun time indeed. It also showed these girls in a less presentable light, and some of them even showed signs of submission and some elements of bdsm that looked hot ...but we are getting ahead of ourselves...
Step 4. - BDSM
In this stage i looked at live action porn with bdsm(mostly just bondage) elements and continued to search for more hentai/manga images of bdsm, because i thought that since they are drawings they can be drawn that they love being tied up and be used. little did i know that actual people existed who liked that :) But looking at images,,especially anime you can see all kinds of stuff you could not in real life, since imagination is virtually limitless.. After a period of loving bondage, then came a sudden turn that i was not expecting..
Step 5. - Shemale/Futanari
Imagine that! a sexy woman, with a pretty face, boobs, and a giant throbbing dick. While i saw these images before, i did not take much interest in that, but it was more of a slow creep that made me get to there. That was neatly packaged in my usual fetishes of lingerie and bdsm...now girls just happen to have dicks i guess...how did that work? do such girls actually exist? I knew that there were shemales, but futanari was a bit different that just made me look into that direction to see how this all works. And in some instances i saw very sexy dominant shemales/futanaris dominating another women....and sometimes a man? And some of those men did not look very manly at all. In fact you could say that they seemed very girly, a SISSY, as you will. And in some cases they seem to very much enjoy themselves by being submissive to their partners.
Step 6. - Traps
It is around this time after seeing that it is a genre in itself that i saw the term "sissy" being used. But traps were the complete opposite of what i was looking at this point. Futanaris being strong sexy females with potent cocks...traps were feminine, weak, submissive guys that technically had a dick,,,but were not supposed to use it...they had other ways of attaining pleasure :) . I probably started to consider a change in perspective in porn. As i was switching in fantasizing about fucking a shemale, I started to wonder on how it would feel to be fucked by one?(not a guy tho, that would be gay, LOL) Started thinking about more passive roles, and starting to piece up the things that used to turn me on, now i can apply it to myself, to create myself as my own porn.
Step 7. Sissy/hypno
Then i realized that there were very beautiful guys out there that looked prettier that most girls i dated. But they put in the effort to look like that, Without the need for body altering medication or surgery. They were just hot and sexy because probably as guys, they knew how to push the right buttons on real men, and how to entice them. Imagine having that power, to cause an erection on another man. to doll yourself up so well, that even a straight man would want to use you <3. But for that i probably needed some help from the internet...and funnily enough, there were videos of hypnotizing the viewer into becoming a submissive sissy (something what dominant men and women want). and the thought of being "forced" to become a object of others desires, made me feel very tingly. before i knew it, i started viewing hypno videos fanatically. And while i would like to say that they don't work...they do (feel good). Just thinking about the end-goal of being used by a dominant partner while being a feminized sissy made me leak a little.
(next Step 8. ???)
Who knows? I guess that by that stage, i will probably ditch porn altogether, or as i am slowly realizing is that i am turning into porn for others to enjoy. I know i have a clunky start, but i do hope to be one day a sissy worth jerking off to for your pleasure ;)
What do you guys think? Did you enjoy my little dissection of the steps of how i came to be a sissy? I would like to hear from others on what was their journey like, or the type of porn you like. Either way, I will very much like to hear your thoughts and i wish you all a lovely evening,
kiss,
Dora
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