Why do you never show all of your face?
I have recieved this question quite a lot in the past few weeks:
Well it's simple I have to lifes: Miriam and my "male" persona. I love being Miriam. I love to dress up, act slutty, turn on men, show off in pictures and videos.... But I also need to protect my "male" persona. But you may ask yourself: Why?
There are two main reasons:
Money (duh)
Being a sissy slut for you guys ain't cheap at all. I might look like a cheap fuck meat ready for you to fill with your cum, but the prices for these outfits are "to damn high". At least it is giving me a financial crisis when I check my bank account end of the month LMAO (Oh Jesus... I spent how much money on amazon again?). And it is not just the clothing, there is also body hygiene. Before 2020 I never bought body lotion now I spend like 30 € only for that (per month). Additionally there is stuff for shaving, my IPL device, lots of lube, etc.
My male persona has a good job (that he also enjoys and he has worked hard for) that earns the money Miriam spends so I depend on him and if anyone from work found out about Miriam I am not sure if I could keep that job.
And as I said I worked hard to get this job and I am working hard to be a good sissy. It would be pointless to throw away everything I worked for in the last years just because I have a new goal. At least thats how I feel. And as long as Miriam spends more than she earns which is actually 0 € (except for some generous gifts, ty guys for that btw <3) it will stay that way. Since I didn't have much success as a cam sissygirl and I am not famous like Natalie Mars or Sissy Joyce nothing will change there.
Acceptance
First of all I accept myself. I accept that I have a kink that pretty much consumes my everyday life and turns me into a slut. I accept that I have days where I am a total whore, dress up and ride my dildos like crazy and other days where I don't even want to shave, hang out with friends playing video games, going into bars, etc.
And I also know that my friends and family are not ready to accept Miriam. Why exactly? Oh....I don't know. Mostly because I live in something I would call the bavarian outback (thank god we have internet) and my family is kinda religious and prefers traditional values. I remember the family crisis when my uncle married his wife and adopted her name.
And no I am not depressed because of that. I have accepted that and come to terms with it.
I know that putting that small black line over my eyes (or putting on that face mask) is not really bulletproof in protecting my identity but it gives me some confidence to carry on sharing content with you. So either accept it or give me more time to maybe loosen up (or make me famous so I earn tons of money lol)
Have a nice weekend <3
Well it's simple I have to lifes: Miriam and my "male" persona. I love being Miriam. I love to dress up, act slutty, turn on men, show off in pictures and videos.... But I also need to protect my "male" persona. But you may ask yourself: Why?
There are two main reasons:
Money (duh)
Being a sissy slut for you guys ain't cheap at all. I might look like a cheap fuck meat ready for you to fill with your cum, but the prices for these outfits are "to damn high". At least it is giving me a financial crisis when I check my bank account end of the month LMAO (Oh Jesus... I spent how much money on amazon again?). And it is not just the clothing, there is also body hygiene. Before 2020 I never bought body lotion now I spend like 30 € only for that (per month). Additionally there is stuff for shaving, my IPL device, lots of lube, etc.
My male persona has a good job (that he also enjoys and he has worked hard for) that earns the money Miriam spends so I depend on him and if anyone from work found out about Miriam I am not sure if I could keep that job.
And as I said I worked hard to get this job and I am working hard to be a good sissy. It would be pointless to throw away everything I worked for in the last years just because I have a new goal. At least thats how I feel. And as long as Miriam spends more than she earns which is actually 0 € (except for some generous gifts, ty guys for that btw <3) it will stay that way. Since I didn't have much success as a cam sissygirl and I am not famous like Natalie Mars or Sissy Joyce nothing will change there.
Acceptance
First of all I accept myself. I accept that I have a kink that pretty much consumes my everyday life and turns me into a slut. I accept that I have days where I am a total whore, dress up and ride my dildos like crazy and other days where I don't even want to shave, hang out with friends playing video games, going into bars, etc.
And I also know that my friends and family are not ready to accept Miriam. Why exactly? Oh....I don't know. Mostly because I live in something I would call the bavarian outback (thank god we have internet) and my family is kinda religious and prefers traditional values. I remember the family crisis when my uncle married his wife and adopted her name.
And no I am not depressed because of that. I have accepted that and come to terms with it.
I know that putting that small black line over my eyes (or putting on that face mask) is not really bulletproof in protecting my identity but it gives me some confidence to carry on sharing content with you. So either accept it or give me more time to maybe loosen up (or make me famous so I earn tons of money lol)
Have a nice weekend <3
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