Smoking & Why I Love It
So i am recently getting asked a lot about my smoking and why I've started again so i think a little smoking bio would answer those questions.
I grew up in a smoking household, i constantly had glue ear as a k** from my parents smoking, still get it now! Mum used to smoke either Mayfair lights or superking lights. My dad has always smoked rollies. My aunt smoked, my dad's mum smoked too and my friend's parents smoked. So i was influenced early on.
I got to 11 and i started going to army cadets and there was this girl, Sargent Butler, she offered me my first fag. It was a Lambert & Butler Kingsize and i didn't cough, didn't feel sick, i just took to it naturally. Didn't take me long to be addicted.
I was a grown-up teen, i rebelled like fuck cause my home life was so shit but i didn't bring trouble to my parent's door and they didn't really know what i was up to. I listened to dance and indie music as i grew up. I was about 11 when i played my first dance track on a CD. It was Altern-8 Armageddon, still get goosebumps at the sirens! Anyway, the dance culture was very much ok with smoking and d**gs. Then indie music, so many of my idols like Brett Anderson and Jarvis Cocker smoked, the girls in videos smoked, they **** about smoking too. It made me want to look like them in the videos. I wanted to be the girl that they were in love with.
I knew from quite early on that boys liked me smoking. I had a couple of male friends who would watch me when they didn't think i was looking. i knew it was a turn on, i also knew it made me look older so i was attracting a lot of men in my twenties at 14-16.
I used to spend my dinner money on fags, £1.20 for a 10 pack of Red Band. left me with 30p so used to buy 3 packs of crisps to last the day. I'd steal my mums fags a lot, even tried rolling at one point but i was shit at it lol I'd collect fag butts and make ashtray rollies :( gross! lol, I was hopelessly addicted though.
At 14 my parents found out i smoked. I got a bollocking off them both but then i stopped giving a shit if they saw me and a year later i was allowed to smoke in the house.
At 16 i was on 20 a day. 40 if i was on a night out. Stayed at 40 for most of my smoking history but just before i gave up i was on 60 a day.
I had the nickname 'fag ash lil' cause i was always smoking. i can perform any task with a fag in my hand or mouth lol Ask Daddy lol
I started smoking weed properly when i was 19 but was just as a comedown thing. Got to 25 and i was smoking it all day! I've had a few breaks from it but it just helps with pain and my mental health.
Tina was born at a drag club in Cleethorpes called 'La Rue's'. I was a barmaid there and as i was surrounded by drag acts i thought i would give it a go. I looked dreadful! I started to hone my look and quickly started going out dressed up. I attracted a lot of attention, not all of it was good though. I've been subject to a Transphobic attack. a group of lads on a night out surrounded me and started being very nasty and pushy. I had to prove i was a woman by showing them my fanny. It was humiliating, to say the least. I needed a few fags after that!
Then tina went quiet while i was in a shitty relationship. I eventually left him and moved in with my best friend, back in Cleethorpes lol I started losing weight and i started dressing up. Not quite sure how i got to making videos of myself smoking but i did and i was hugely popular on youtube. I had over 4 million views when i deleted my Youtube account.
After a year i met my hubby. We met through Tina's Twitter! He was a fan and we got on. He egged on Tina massively. Bought my nice clothes, makeup, underwear etc.
Tina progressed into doing porn but it was pretty much all smoking based. To be honest, i lost my love for her as she had become a job and not something i enjoyed doing.
I decided to give up in 2016 and set 1st September as my giving up date. At midnight i smoked my last fag and didn't smoke again for f.ive years. I became a hit in the vape scene too. I had a 50k group on Facebook, i did conventions as a guest, did reviewing and lives. We were the heart of the UK vaping scene. Facebook changed its rules 3 years ago and we lost the group and i lost my interest in vaping. I carried on vaping till about March this year i think it was.
I had a medication change and it lifted me out of a massive depressive spell that had lasted a long time. My sex drive returned too. I had started talking to Daddy and i wanted Tina to come back and my will for wanting a cigarette was overwhelming. So i bought some fags and started with 5 a day and now I'm back on at least 40 (i smoke rollies daily, I'm skint, don't judge!) a day. It completely turned me on to being Tina again.
As much as i know the fags are doing me damage, i just love it too much. I feel calmer as a smoker, i lose weight, i feel sexier and i know men find it sexy too ;)
I don't really have a smoking fetish for anyone else smoking. I love watching myself smoke. If you notice on my smoking videos i am watching myself and not looking at the camera very often lol
I hope to be doing more smoking fetish porn stuff with Daddy & Darling R at some point. Daddy will enjoy a smoking Blowjob and Darling R likes to be fed my smoke, so a good range!
So that's a brief history of my life as a smoker. I've probably missed out loads but its enough to know why i smoke.
Smoky Kisses xxx
I grew up in a smoking household, i constantly had glue ear as a k** from my parents smoking, still get it now! Mum used to smoke either Mayfair lights or superking lights. My dad has always smoked rollies. My aunt smoked, my dad's mum smoked too and my friend's parents smoked. So i was influenced early on.
I got to 11 and i started going to army cadets and there was this girl, Sargent Butler, she offered me my first fag. It was a Lambert & Butler Kingsize and i didn't cough, didn't feel sick, i just took to it naturally. Didn't take me long to be addicted.
I was a grown-up teen, i rebelled like fuck cause my home life was so shit but i didn't bring trouble to my parent's door and they didn't really know what i was up to. I listened to dance and indie music as i grew up. I was about 11 when i played my first dance track on a CD. It was Altern-8 Armageddon, still get goosebumps at the sirens! Anyway, the dance culture was very much ok with smoking and d**gs. Then indie music, so many of my idols like Brett Anderson and Jarvis Cocker smoked, the girls in videos smoked, they **** about smoking too. It made me want to look like them in the videos. I wanted to be the girl that they were in love with.
I knew from quite early on that boys liked me smoking. I had a couple of male friends who would watch me when they didn't think i was looking. i knew it was a turn on, i also knew it made me look older so i was attracting a lot of men in my twenties at 14-16.
I used to spend my dinner money on fags, £1.20 for a 10 pack of Red Band. left me with 30p so used to buy 3 packs of crisps to last the day. I'd steal my mums fags a lot, even tried rolling at one point but i was shit at it lol I'd collect fag butts and make ashtray rollies :( gross! lol, I was hopelessly addicted though.
At 14 my parents found out i smoked. I got a bollocking off them both but then i stopped giving a shit if they saw me and a year later i was allowed to smoke in the house.
At 16 i was on 20 a day. 40 if i was on a night out. Stayed at 40 for most of my smoking history but just before i gave up i was on 60 a day.
I had the nickname 'fag ash lil' cause i was always smoking. i can perform any task with a fag in my hand or mouth lol Ask Daddy lol
I started smoking weed properly when i was 19 but was just as a comedown thing. Got to 25 and i was smoking it all day! I've had a few breaks from it but it just helps with pain and my mental health.
Tina was born at a drag club in Cleethorpes called 'La Rue's'. I was a barmaid there and as i was surrounded by drag acts i thought i would give it a go. I looked dreadful! I started to hone my look and quickly started going out dressed up. I attracted a lot of attention, not all of it was good though. I've been subject to a Transphobic attack. a group of lads on a night out surrounded me and started being very nasty and pushy. I had to prove i was a woman by showing them my fanny. It was humiliating, to say the least. I needed a few fags after that!
Then tina went quiet while i was in a shitty relationship. I eventually left him and moved in with my best friend, back in Cleethorpes lol I started losing weight and i started dressing up. Not quite sure how i got to making videos of myself smoking but i did and i was hugely popular on youtube. I had over 4 million views when i deleted my Youtube account.
After a year i met my hubby. We met through Tina's Twitter! He was a fan and we got on. He egged on Tina massively. Bought my nice clothes, makeup, underwear etc.
Tina progressed into doing porn but it was pretty much all smoking based. To be honest, i lost my love for her as she had become a job and not something i enjoyed doing.
I decided to give up in 2016 and set 1st September as my giving up date. At midnight i smoked my last fag and didn't smoke again for f.ive years. I became a hit in the vape scene too. I had a 50k group on Facebook, i did conventions as a guest, did reviewing and lives. We were the heart of the UK vaping scene. Facebook changed its rules 3 years ago and we lost the group and i lost my interest in vaping. I carried on vaping till about March this year i think it was.
I had a medication change and it lifted me out of a massive depressive spell that had lasted a long time. My sex drive returned too. I had started talking to Daddy and i wanted Tina to come back and my will for wanting a cigarette was overwhelming. So i bought some fags and started with 5 a day and now I'm back on at least 40 (i smoke rollies daily, I'm skint, don't judge!) a day. It completely turned me on to being Tina again.
As much as i know the fags are doing me damage, i just love it too much. I feel calmer as a smoker, i lose weight, i feel sexier and i know men find it sexy too ;)
I don't really have a smoking fetish for anyone else smoking. I love watching myself smoke. If you notice on my smoking videos i am watching myself and not looking at the camera very often lol
I hope to be doing more smoking fetish porn stuff with Daddy & Darling R at some point. Daddy will enjoy a smoking Blowjob and Darling R likes to be fed my smoke, so a good range!
So that's a brief history of my life as a smoker. I've probably missed out loads but its enough to know why i smoke.
Smoky Kisses xxx
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