I have learned something precious…
Having made my videos for 2+ years now, I have learned something very precious and useful from all the experiences I've had. Maybe you, too, will find it useful.
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I was never, and am not out to prove anything by the making of my videos. But at least it is clearly evident, to both myself and many others, that there seems to be no limit to the sexual intensity that is expressed in them. And from my own point of view, I would venture to say that I have never before experienced such intense sexuality – and I certainly have not had a boring sex-life prior to the making of these videos, oh no, on the contrary!
I suggest that there is something to be learned from this, and that is:
The intensity of sexual experience is not defined by, or dependent on particular props and/or partners.
What goes on in me when I record a video, happens in my mind – and only there. And from there, it is then expressed outwardly and the outward is caught by the camera. The props don’t ”do it” for me, because they change from time to time. The dressing up and makeup don’t ”do it” for me either, because many times I am not dressed up and with no makeup at all. The same goes for sexual activity with a partner: Everything experienced takes place in the mind.
So, why all the particular props? Or, why a particular partner? Well, the props and/or partner, represent something to me. That ”something” is a space where my mind can be free to give birth to any fantasy and explore any role. They can then be realized, materialized in the physical realm, and the experiencing begins, and mind is no longer needed, because the experience overtakes my mind, and all its thinking, planning, conjuring up new ideas… simply cease, and it only enjoys the pleasures of every moment. My mind can be said to then be at rest, and the experiencing of the sexual intensity is all there is. For a second, minute, or many hours on the clock, but that is completely irrelevant to the point I am making here. The utmost satisfaction, the release of all my sexual energy, or whatever we call it, comes when mind is no longer needed, when it is at absolute rest, and the experiencing is all that there is. Time, space, ego, thinking, they all seem to disappear at this point.
I posit that what this topic is about, is something universally true, unquestionable, verifiable, and repeatable. And that it is experienced by most humans, one or more times throughout living – I am definitely not ”special” in this regard. And what is significant about all of this, is that it happens regardless of, or rather beyond any particular props and/or partner! They are mere representations, or to use an analogy: They serve as a ”doorway” to an experience of utmost satisfaction. My props can’t experience anything, but a partner can, but neither I nor a partner would really be interested in the ”doorway”, no, but in the experience, where mind is at rest, and experiencing is all there is.
Imagining that the particular props and/or partner really are required for experiencing intense sexuality, poses a ”problem” for many, a problem that often shows up only after the prop/partner is gone, altered, or broken. Believing this imagination – because that’s all it is – causes one to hold on to the particular prop and/or partner, because if it/she/he is not around any longer, the experience is believed to be unattainable. Have you not seen in my videos, in plain sight, how this is just a belief? Having the ”right” prop or partner is not what makes the experience possible, nor what creates the experience – it is my mind! And limiting my mind to particular props and/or partner does not change that – no, because a particular prop and/or partner is still only a doorway, and all we are ever interested in, is the experiencing itself! What happens in the mind generates the experience – not the other way around – but it’s easy to confuse the events on this circular line, circle of events, thinking that it is the props/partner that generates the experience.
Can you taste the sweetness in this? That you don’t need to hold on to anything in particular outside of your own mind in order to experience utmost satisfaction. That your experience is not defined by things, whether they be props or partner. Since everything you experience is experienced in your mind, if your mind can be freed from the belief that something particular is required, your mind can go through a lot of other ”doorways” to the same experiencing of utmost satisfaction where mind is at rest, when time, space, ego, and thinking ceases. I am one to call this experience Bliss, but no matter what you call it, you know what it is. And now, perhaps, you know that it is all in your mind, and that it is free to walk through other doorways to the same experiencing.
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I was never, and am not out to prove anything by the making of my videos. But at least it is clearly evident, to both myself and many others, that there seems to be no limit to the sexual intensity that is expressed in them. And from my own point of view, I would venture to say that I have never before experienced such intense sexuality – and I certainly have not had a boring sex-life prior to the making of these videos, oh no, on the contrary!
I suggest that there is something to be learned from this, and that is:
The intensity of sexual experience is not defined by, or dependent on particular props and/or partners.
What goes on in me when I record a video, happens in my mind – and only there. And from there, it is then expressed outwardly and the outward is caught by the camera. The props don’t ”do it” for me, because they change from time to time. The dressing up and makeup don’t ”do it” for me either, because many times I am not dressed up and with no makeup at all. The same goes for sexual activity with a partner: Everything experienced takes place in the mind.
So, why all the particular props? Or, why a particular partner? Well, the props and/or partner, represent something to me. That ”something” is a space where my mind can be free to give birth to any fantasy and explore any role. They can then be realized, materialized in the physical realm, and the experiencing begins, and mind is no longer needed, because the experience overtakes my mind, and all its thinking, planning, conjuring up new ideas… simply cease, and it only enjoys the pleasures of every moment. My mind can be said to then be at rest, and the experiencing of the sexual intensity is all there is. For a second, minute, or many hours on the clock, but that is completely irrelevant to the point I am making here. The utmost satisfaction, the release of all my sexual energy, or whatever we call it, comes when mind is no longer needed, when it is at absolute rest, and the experiencing is all that there is. Time, space, ego, thinking, they all seem to disappear at this point.
I posit that what this topic is about, is something universally true, unquestionable, verifiable, and repeatable. And that it is experienced by most humans, one or more times throughout living – I am definitely not ”special” in this regard. And what is significant about all of this, is that it happens regardless of, or rather beyond any particular props and/or partner! They are mere representations, or to use an analogy: They serve as a ”doorway” to an experience of utmost satisfaction. My props can’t experience anything, but a partner can, but neither I nor a partner would really be interested in the ”doorway”, no, but in the experience, where mind is at rest, and experiencing is all there is.
Imagining that the particular props and/or partner really are required for experiencing intense sexuality, poses a ”problem” for many, a problem that often shows up only after the prop/partner is gone, altered, or broken. Believing this imagination – because that’s all it is – causes one to hold on to the particular prop and/or partner, because if it/she/he is not around any longer, the experience is believed to be unattainable. Have you not seen in my videos, in plain sight, how this is just a belief? Having the ”right” prop or partner is not what makes the experience possible, nor what creates the experience – it is my mind! And limiting my mind to particular props and/or partner does not change that – no, because a particular prop and/or partner is still only a doorway, and all we are ever interested in, is the experiencing itself! What happens in the mind generates the experience – not the other way around – but it’s easy to confuse the events on this circular line, circle of events, thinking that it is the props/partner that generates the experience.
Can you taste the sweetness in this? That you don’t need to hold on to anything in particular outside of your own mind in order to experience utmost satisfaction. That your experience is not defined by things, whether they be props or partner. Since everything you experience is experienced in your mind, if your mind can be freed from the belief that something particular is required, your mind can go through a lot of other ”doorways” to the same experiencing of utmost satisfaction where mind is at rest, when time, space, ego, and thinking ceases. I am one to call this experience Bliss, but no matter what you call it, you know what it is. And now, perhaps, you know that it is all in your mind, and that it is free to walk through other doorways to the same experiencing.
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