My path -- short version

My kinks have drifted over the years. I have always wished i was born a girl... crossdressed from my teen years (but never passed)... thought i might be transsexual... tried to feminize a bit some decades later... drifted, thinking myself more gay as that part of my self revealed itself. I now know i am some sort of bottom but not fully sure which subset to identify with, sub sissy fag or gay or trans or even wife... but a bottom for sure, looking for a good male to serve. In all cases, susan comes alive as opposed to my closeted life now. If i was in prison, i know what my role would be. Porn has helped me discover myself and brings me joy and inspiration.