My Gay Confessional
For the past couple of years I have been growing more and more sexual attracted to men and gay sex.
I cant stop thinking about it and the desire gets stronger every day.
I masturbate to gay porn sometimes 3 times a day. I just cant get enough.
Now, I have always considered myself primarily straight (slightly Bi maybe) and except for a brief time in my teens to mid 20’s (what I always thought was an experimental and frivolous phase), I have lived a straight life.
I never questioned my sexual preference. I liked women. A LOT. I never felt like I was hiding or faking it. Even now I still find women attractive for the most part. I like the way they look and smell. They are pleasant to hug, cuddle and kiss.
I am still very much emotionally and romantically attracted to women.
But beyond that, sexually, I really have no desire anymore. I don’t get sexually aroused when I'm around them. They just don’t turn me on.
On the other hand, a certain type(s) of (Gay) Men can get me so aroused I think Im going to bust in my pants. Not all men though. In fact the majority of men I don’t find attractive in any way.
However, there are about .01% of men that can just really get me going. Almost a****list urges. Primal.
Its more a physical and sexual attraction than emotional or romantic. I dont want to cuddle with men. I dont like kissing men and I dont want to take long walks on a beach under the moon, unless we are going to suck each other off behind a bush.
I also cant explain why one man can really turn me on while most others I dont have any sort of attraction to at all.
The feelings (desires) first surfaced back about 5 years ago. It had been 2 years since my divorce. I had been dating around, meeting some nice women and having a good time, but nothing seemed to stick. No real “connection”.
I was working out at a local gym, going twice a week or so just to keep fit.
I never tried to “hook up” there and I didn’t really talk to anyone other than the occasional “Hello” and such. I usually just kept to myself, did my workout and went home.
On this one particular day it was a little hot, so I decided to shower before leaving.
I had finished rinsing off and was sitting on a locker-bench with only a towel around my waist when one of the other gym members walked in.
I had seen him around before. He was an older man, mid 50’s or so. Fit, but not overly muscular. Great shape for a guy in his 50’s.
We had said hello maybe once or twice.
Anyway, he opened one of the lockers about 10 feet down the row from me and started to take some items out.
I didn’t really pay attention after this as I was going through my own bag for my street clothes and shoes.
I was just about to remove my towel and put my pants on when a locker door slamming shut got my attention, and for some reason I looked up.
There, not 10 feet away from me was the biggest cock I had ever seen in real life.
Big Daddy was butt-ass naked and sporting what had to be 8+ inches of fat swollen pig meat.
The thing was just massive. Uncut and Semi hard, just sticking out there like a baby Elephant trunk.
I sat there frozen. I couldn’t stop looking at it.
He turned and walked towards the shower room. His cock swinging back and forth as he walked. It was fucking mesmerizing.
It was then I noticed my own dick was hard. Not just hard, rock fucking hard. throbbing.
It almost hurt it was so erect. I was shocked and embarrassed. I quickly removed my towel and slid my pants on. Put on my shoes and shirt, grabbed my bag and left as fast as I could.
I caught a glimpse of him in the shower as I left, all wet, soapy suds dripping off his huge cock.
I immediately went home, I couldn’t get the image out of my head and every time I thought about it, my cock would start to swell again.
Its like something was triggered inside me.
Since then I have not dated any women and I really have no desire to in the future.
I now masturbate to A LOT of Gay Porn. Exclusively.
Though Im not quite ready to have sex with men, yet, I feel its only a matter of time before my urges and desires win out over my inhibitions and fears.
I guess my "experimental stage" was not just some youthful play like I had thought it was.
Maybe my formative years were showing what I am. Maybe I have always been gay and only now am I really coming out.
I don’t know.
Things started young (sexually) for me. All the boys on my block were a bunch of out- of -control dirty little monkeys from a young age.
Skinny-dipping, Streaking, Peeping, getting girls to show their cooch, showing them our wieners, playing pee games, etc. We were pervy little k**s.
When I was young, at a sleep over camp, I witness an older boy have a nocturnal emission. I was scared, but excited and thrilled at the same time. All this thick white goo came oozing out all over his stomach. I didn’t know what that was.
I was grossed out, but it definitely left an impression on me.
When I was older, a friend and I were walking to a near-by park and we were taking a short-cut down an alley when we heard some noise coming from one of the houses.
The house belonged to 2 men. They were new to the neighborhood. Nice guys. One was in his late 40’s. The other was late 20’s.
We had played Foosball at their house a few times and they had taught us how to Disco.
At the time we had always thought they were brothers living together. They did look very similar and Gay men weren’t something you expected to see in the suburbs in the 70’s.
Maybe the dancing thing should have given it away. I don’t know, but they didn’t “act” gay or queer or different in any way.
Anyway, as we were walking down the alley, we heard splashing and high-pitched laughing coming from the backyard. We moved over to peek through the fence slats to see what was going on. Little curious bastards that we were.
We saw the older guy sitting in a deck chair under the umbrella-table. He was wearing a robe, sunglasses and holding a drink.
We could also see someone swimming and splashing in the pool. At first we thought it was a girl. That was until the person got out of the water.
It was a boy. A young male, not much older than us. Maybe 18 or so.
He was totally nude and totally erect as he walked up the steps and out of the pool.
He kind of “pranced” over to him and stood in front of him, then he did something we never expected. He sat up, grabbed the young man by the hips, pulled him toward him and put his penis in his mouth.
For the next few minutes or so we watched, entranced as he performed oral sex on the boy (man).
We couldn’t stop watching and would have kept watching, but got spooked when a neighbor opened his gate to take out the trash.
We took off to the park.
We couldn’t get what we saw off our minds.
We talked about it for the rest of the day and over the next few weeks. We were confused, but intrigued and excited about what it was like. Should we try it?
Neither of us had even had sex with a girl yet, but what we saw looked like it was really fun and enjoyable.
It was not long after that we began a “special” relationship that lasted for about 4 years.
We started with mutual masturbation and then eventually moved on to oral. We tried anal, but it was painful and uncomfortable so we pretty much just stuck to sucking and jacking each other off.
Even when one of us would have a girl we were seeing, we still occasionally got together for a “Session”.
We never really thought about it being “gay” or anything. Just 2 friends having some secret naked fun and helping each other get off.
It was fun and I really enjoyed sucking cock.
Though I never got to like the taste of cum.
My first “real” gay experience (m2m sex with someone other than my friend) happened when I was 19. (It was also, to this day, the most incredible, intense and erotic sexual experience I have ever had)
I had a fake ID that said I was 21 so I was able to buy alcohol and gain entrance to other adult places, like Porn shops.
The store was one of those dark seedy ones on the edge of town.
The guy behind the counter was a big, bald, bearded gorilla of a man.
Like a Biker, Trucker, Bigfoot combo. Late 40’s or so.
“It’s a dollar entry fee and I need to see some ID.” He said.
I handed him a $5 and my fake ID.
He looked at the ID, then back at me a few times then handed it and $4 back to me.
“Magazines and Movies are on the right. Marital Aids and Accessories on the left. Theater and Arcade are in the back. There is a change machine for quarters.” He said.
I entered through the turnstile and went off to the right. Looking down the isles I browsed the magazines.
I eventually ended up at the Arcade. I put in the $4 and got 16 quarters. I then found a vacant booth in the back and went in.
I put 4 quarters in the machine and started flipping through the offered movies.
I had been in there no more than 2 minutes when the door to my booth opened.
My dick out and in my hand. I quickly tried to cover up.
It was the guy from the front counter.
“Whats going on in here?” he asked staring down at me.
I just stammered slack jawed.
“Im gonna need to see that ID of yours again.” He said holding out his hand.
I got my ID out of my wallet and handed it to him.
He took a small pen-light out and examined my ID.
“Hmmm. Im not too sure about this ID.” He said. “I think Im going to have to call the cops in to check this out.”
“P..Please don’t" I said. I was scared out of my mind.
He was huge. Bigger than he looked behind the counter.
He took up the entire doorframe of the video booth.
There was no way to escape. I was trapped.
“I tell you what.” He said, “You give me that cock and I wont call the cops.”
“WHAT!? I managed to stammer out.
“I get your cock or the Police get your ass!”
I just stared up at him. My mouth open. Speechless. What could I do?
“That’s a good boy” he said as he came fully into the booth and flicked the latch (I never knew there was a lock on the door), “Now stand up and drop those pants. Show me what you got”
I stood up and let my jeans drop to my ankles. I removed my hands from covering myself.
I don’t know why, but I was erect.
“Oh Yeah! Nice piece of meat boy!” he said smiling.
He reached forward, grabbed my dick and balls in his big rough paw, knelt down and put my entire dick in his mouth.
His mouth was so hot as he sucked and tongued my cock. His beard was rough, yet soft against my thighs. His giant arm locked around my waist as he gobbled at my crotch.
The feeling was so amazing.
He was doing something with the back of his tongue and throat that just brought me to the edge and it wasn’t long before I completely let loose and popped in his mouth.
He kept sucking and slurping and swallowing. It was like I was a milkshake and my dick was the straw.
I kept cumming and cumming and he just kept drinking me.
At one point it felt like I was pissing, but I didn’t care. The release and the ecstasy were beyond incredible.
When he finally let go of me I collapsed back onto this plastic lawn chair that was in the booth.
I was weak and shaking. I couldn’t move. I was completely spent.
The massive Man-b**st rose up in front of me. I didn’t know what he was going to do to me now, but I was to weak to do much about it.
He was wearing a blue mechanics jump-suit which he had unzipped and was pulling off his massive shoulders.
He was so hairy. Like a light brown sweater. It kind of shone like and aura around his torso in the video screen light.
His jumpsuit was at his feet and he naked.
He had a huge giant barrel chest and belly and the biggest nipples I had ever seen.
Like a shrunk down slice of bologna with a Vienna sausage in the middle.
He was so big and hairy. Completely covered head to toe in the soft man-fur. Except for his crotch area, which was shaved.
I had never seen that before.
Amazingly for a man his size he had a very small dick. Maybe 4 inches at the most, He was uncut, but had a very large mushroom shaped head that would kind of “pop” in and out of the tight foreskin as he stroked himself with his thumb and first 2 fingers.
As he leaned forward and over me, bracing his free hand on the wall above me, his big belly smashed into my forehead and pinned my head against the wall.
“Grab my nipples” he said.
I reached up with both hands and grabbed his big bologna nipples. They were hard like rubber erasers.
“Twist em” he growled.
I gave them a nice hard twist.
He groaned loudly as he was swing his dick back and forth in my face. It brushed my lips, but he never tried to put it in my mouth.
He leaned back, grunted and let loose the biggest load of cum all over me.
It was hot and thick and came out in multiple long ropey streams.
I pulled on his tits as he shot load after load all over me.
I could feel it running down my may chest, down over my dick and balls pooling in the crack of my ass like a waterfall.
He was shaking and grunting as he squeezed his juice out.
He pushed back off the wall, again standing naked in front of me. His small cock still hard with a drop of cum hanging from the tip.
He scooped it off with his finger, ate it and smiled down at me.
“Now pull up your pants and get the fuck out of here.” He said as he also pulled his jumper back on and zipped up.
I looked down at myself. I was covered in cum. It was on my shirt, all over my cock and balls and a lot had dripped down into my pants. I was soaked. There were no towels.
“Wear that shit home to your Mama little man.” He said opening the door and walking out.
I put my shirt down over my cum covered chest, pulled up my pants and walked out of the booth.
I tried to leave as quickly and quietly as possible, but on the way out the Man-b**st stopped me.
“If you ever come back be prepared to pay up boy.” He said. “You know what the price is.”
I bolted out the door and went home as fast as I could.
I never went back there.
My next gay experienced happened a few years later.
I had gotten off work late and missed my bus. It was late and I didn’t want to wait for the next one. My Apt was across town, but for some reason I decided to walk thinking maybe Id catch a ride.
Well it wasn’t long before I did.
Big Cadillac pulls up next to me and the passenger window goes down
“Hey! Need a ride?” says the driver.
I lean down and look in the window. Its an older man. 50’s maybe 60’s.
Grey beard and hair. Looks like Santa.
I tell him my Apt is all the way across town.
He says “Well I can take you there, but I might need you to put something in the tank. It’s a guzzler”
He kind of motions to the car, but then pats his big round belly.
Laughing like jolly old Santa.
I told him I didn’t have any money for gas.
He said, “Well, you know the old saying- Gas, Grass or Ass. No one rides for free.” and laughs again patting his big belly.
I laugh, because I know the phrase as a joke, but he leans over in the seat and says real serious, “Look, Ill give you a ride and you let me suck your dick. Deal?”
I stopped laughing and asked if he was serious.
He said, “Yep! Come on, hop in. Ill give you the best blowjob you’ve ever had.”
I really didn’t want to walk home and whos to know, right?
So, I got a ride home and a really great blowjob from Santa Claus.
The next time was after a long night partying. No trim was willing so I decided to stop in the nearest Porn Shop and spank out some knuckle babies.
As I was walking down the hall of video booths, someone “Psst!” me.
I looked over and there was a guy standing in one of the doorways.
“You looking for a blowjob?” he says to me.
I look him up and down. Clean cut, short mustache. Looks like a Cop.
“You a Cop?” I ask.
He smiles at me, “Today Im a cock sucking ******. You want your balls drained or not?” he says.
Im lit and horny and whos to know, right?
So I step into the booth and get my balls drained by a cum hungry cop.
The last time I had a M2M experience was when I was 26. I was out of town for work and had an evening to myself before heading home.
I went out and got a little trashed and ended up in another Porn Shop.
As I was starting to rub one out I heard the familiar “Psst. Hey! Suck your dick?”
I was in a closed and locked booth and didn’t know where it was coming from.
Then I saw a hole on the wall and in that hole was a bearded mouth.
“Gimme your cock!” the mouth said.
Im, again drunk, in a strange town and whos to know, right?
So I let a Hole suck me to 2 amazingly long juicy loads.
I didn’t even watch a movie.
And that was it.
After that I have live a standard straight life. No secret meetings on the D/L or encounters with strange Holes in the Wall. Didn’t even think about it in any way. I was very happy with my wife and k**s.
But now all that has changed.
Now I dream of my past encounters and fantasize about new ones. I am so cock hungry sometimes I think Im going crazy.
I want to go back to that first porn shop and just let that massive Man-b**st do everything to me!
That’s where I am now. That’s my “Story”.
Trying to make sense of these changes that Im going through.
Hopefully one day I will understand them and be comfortable with who/what I am.
I cant stop thinking about it and the desire gets stronger every day.
I masturbate to gay porn sometimes 3 times a day. I just cant get enough.
Now, I have always considered myself primarily straight (slightly Bi maybe) and except for a brief time in my teens to mid 20’s (what I always thought was an experimental and frivolous phase), I have lived a straight life.
I never questioned my sexual preference. I liked women. A LOT. I never felt like I was hiding or faking it. Even now I still find women attractive for the most part. I like the way they look and smell. They are pleasant to hug, cuddle and kiss.
I am still very much emotionally and romantically attracted to women.
But beyond that, sexually, I really have no desire anymore. I don’t get sexually aroused when I'm around them. They just don’t turn me on.
On the other hand, a certain type(s) of (Gay) Men can get me so aroused I think Im going to bust in my pants. Not all men though. In fact the majority of men I don’t find attractive in any way.
However, there are about .01% of men that can just really get me going. Almost a****list urges. Primal.
Its more a physical and sexual attraction than emotional or romantic. I dont want to cuddle with men. I dont like kissing men and I dont want to take long walks on a beach under the moon, unless we are going to suck each other off behind a bush.
I also cant explain why one man can really turn me on while most others I dont have any sort of attraction to at all.
The feelings (desires) first surfaced back about 5 years ago. It had been 2 years since my divorce. I had been dating around, meeting some nice women and having a good time, but nothing seemed to stick. No real “connection”.
I was working out at a local gym, going twice a week or so just to keep fit.
I never tried to “hook up” there and I didn’t really talk to anyone other than the occasional “Hello” and such. I usually just kept to myself, did my workout and went home.
On this one particular day it was a little hot, so I decided to shower before leaving.
I had finished rinsing off and was sitting on a locker-bench with only a towel around my waist when one of the other gym members walked in.
I had seen him around before. He was an older man, mid 50’s or so. Fit, but not overly muscular. Great shape for a guy in his 50’s.
We had said hello maybe once or twice.
Anyway, he opened one of the lockers about 10 feet down the row from me and started to take some items out.
I didn’t really pay attention after this as I was going through my own bag for my street clothes and shoes.
I was just about to remove my towel and put my pants on when a locker door slamming shut got my attention, and for some reason I looked up.
There, not 10 feet away from me was the biggest cock I had ever seen in real life.
Big Daddy was butt-ass naked and sporting what had to be 8+ inches of fat swollen pig meat.
The thing was just massive. Uncut and Semi hard, just sticking out there like a baby Elephant trunk.
I sat there frozen. I couldn’t stop looking at it.
He turned and walked towards the shower room. His cock swinging back and forth as he walked. It was fucking mesmerizing.
It was then I noticed my own dick was hard. Not just hard, rock fucking hard. throbbing.
It almost hurt it was so erect. I was shocked and embarrassed. I quickly removed my towel and slid my pants on. Put on my shoes and shirt, grabbed my bag and left as fast as I could.
I caught a glimpse of him in the shower as I left, all wet, soapy suds dripping off his huge cock.
I immediately went home, I couldn’t get the image out of my head and every time I thought about it, my cock would start to swell again.
Its like something was triggered inside me.
Since then I have not dated any women and I really have no desire to in the future.
I now masturbate to A LOT of Gay Porn. Exclusively.
Though Im not quite ready to have sex with men, yet, I feel its only a matter of time before my urges and desires win out over my inhibitions and fears.
I guess my "experimental stage" was not just some youthful play like I had thought it was.
Maybe my formative years were showing what I am. Maybe I have always been gay and only now am I really coming out.
I don’t know.
Things started young (sexually) for me. All the boys on my block were a bunch of out- of -control dirty little monkeys from a young age.
Skinny-dipping, Streaking, Peeping, getting girls to show their cooch, showing them our wieners, playing pee games, etc. We were pervy little k**s.
When I was young, at a sleep over camp, I witness an older boy have a nocturnal emission. I was scared, but excited and thrilled at the same time. All this thick white goo came oozing out all over his stomach. I didn’t know what that was.
I was grossed out, but it definitely left an impression on me.
When I was older, a friend and I were walking to a near-by park and we were taking a short-cut down an alley when we heard some noise coming from one of the houses.
The house belonged to 2 men. They were new to the neighborhood. Nice guys. One was in his late 40’s. The other was late 20’s.
We had played Foosball at their house a few times and they had taught us how to Disco.
At the time we had always thought they were brothers living together. They did look very similar and Gay men weren’t something you expected to see in the suburbs in the 70’s.
Maybe the dancing thing should have given it away. I don’t know, but they didn’t “act” gay or queer or different in any way.
Anyway, as we were walking down the alley, we heard splashing and high-pitched laughing coming from the backyard. We moved over to peek through the fence slats to see what was going on. Little curious bastards that we were.
We saw the older guy sitting in a deck chair under the umbrella-table. He was wearing a robe, sunglasses and holding a drink.
We could also see someone swimming and splashing in the pool. At first we thought it was a girl. That was until the person got out of the water.
It was a boy. A young male, not much older than us. Maybe 18 or so.
He was totally nude and totally erect as he walked up the steps and out of the pool.
He kind of “pranced” over to him and stood in front of him, then he did something we never expected. He sat up, grabbed the young man by the hips, pulled him toward him and put his penis in his mouth.
For the next few minutes or so we watched, entranced as he performed oral sex on the boy (man).
We couldn’t stop watching and would have kept watching, but got spooked when a neighbor opened his gate to take out the trash.
We took off to the park.
We couldn’t get what we saw off our minds.
We talked about it for the rest of the day and over the next few weeks. We were confused, but intrigued and excited about what it was like. Should we try it?
Neither of us had even had sex with a girl yet, but what we saw looked like it was really fun and enjoyable.
It was not long after that we began a “special” relationship that lasted for about 4 years.
We started with mutual masturbation and then eventually moved on to oral. We tried anal, but it was painful and uncomfortable so we pretty much just stuck to sucking and jacking each other off.
Even when one of us would have a girl we were seeing, we still occasionally got together for a “Session”.
We never really thought about it being “gay” or anything. Just 2 friends having some secret naked fun and helping each other get off.
It was fun and I really enjoyed sucking cock.
Though I never got to like the taste of cum.
My first “real” gay experience (m2m sex with someone other than my friend) happened when I was 19. (It was also, to this day, the most incredible, intense and erotic sexual experience I have ever had)
I had a fake ID that said I was 21 so I was able to buy alcohol and gain entrance to other adult places, like Porn shops.
The store was one of those dark seedy ones on the edge of town.
The guy behind the counter was a big, bald, bearded gorilla of a man.
Like a Biker, Trucker, Bigfoot combo. Late 40’s or so.
“It’s a dollar entry fee and I need to see some ID.” He said.
I handed him a $5 and my fake ID.
He looked at the ID, then back at me a few times then handed it and $4 back to me.
“Magazines and Movies are on the right. Marital Aids and Accessories on the left. Theater and Arcade are in the back. There is a change machine for quarters.” He said.
I entered through the turnstile and went off to the right. Looking down the isles I browsed the magazines.
I eventually ended up at the Arcade. I put in the $4 and got 16 quarters. I then found a vacant booth in the back and went in.
I put 4 quarters in the machine and started flipping through the offered movies.
I had been in there no more than 2 minutes when the door to my booth opened.
My dick out and in my hand. I quickly tried to cover up.
It was the guy from the front counter.
“Whats going on in here?” he asked staring down at me.
I just stammered slack jawed.
“Im gonna need to see that ID of yours again.” He said holding out his hand.
I got my ID out of my wallet and handed it to him.
He took a small pen-light out and examined my ID.
“Hmmm. Im not too sure about this ID.” He said. “I think Im going to have to call the cops in to check this out.”
“P..Please don’t" I said. I was scared out of my mind.
He was huge. Bigger than he looked behind the counter.
He took up the entire doorframe of the video booth.
There was no way to escape. I was trapped.
“I tell you what.” He said, “You give me that cock and I wont call the cops.”
“WHAT!? I managed to stammer out.
“I get your cock or the Police get your ass!”
I just stared up at him. My mouth open. Speechless. What could I do?
“That’s a good boy” he said as he came fully into the booth and flicked the latch (I never knew there was a lock on the door), “Now stand up and drop those pants. Show me what you got”
I stood up and let my jeans drop to my ankles. I removed my hands from covering myself.
I don’t know why, but I was erect.
“Oh Yeah! Nice piece of meat boy!” he said smiling.
He reached forward, grabbed my dick and balls in his big rough paw, knelt down and put my entire dick in his mouth.
His mouth was so hot as he sucked and tongued my cock. His beard was rough, yet soft against my thighs. His giant arm locked around my waist as he gobbled at my crotch.
The feeling was so amazing.
He was doing something with the back of his tongue and throat that just brought me to the edge and it wasn’t long before I completely let loose and popped in his mouth.
He kept sucking and slurping and swallowing. It was like I was a milkshake and my dick was the straw.
I kept cumming and cumming and he just kept drinking me.
At one point it felt like I was pissing, but I didn’t care. The release and the ecstasy were beyond incredible.
When he finally let go of me I collapsed back onto this plastic lawn chair that was in the booth.
I was weak and shaking. I couldn’t move. I was completely spent.
The massive Man-b**st rose up in front of me. I didn’t know what he was going to do to me now, but I was to weak to do much about it.
He was wearing a blue mechanics jump-suit which he had unzipped and was pulling off his massive shoulders.
He was so hairy. Like a light brown sweater. It kind of shone like and aura around his torso in the video screen light.
His jumpsuit was at his feet and he naked.
He had a huge giant barrel chest and belly and the biggest nipples I had ever seen.
Like a shrunk down slice of bologna with a Vienna sausage in the middle.
He was so big and hairy. Completely covered head to toe in the soft man-fur. Except for his crotch area, which was shaved.
I had never seen that before.
Amazingly for a man his size he had a very small dick. Maybe 4 inches at the most, He was uncut, but had a very large mushroom shaped head that would kind of “pop” in and out of the tight foreskin as he stroked himself with his thumb and first 2 fingers.
As he leaned forward and over me, bracing his free hand on the wall above me, his big belly smashed into my forehead and pinned my head against the wall.
“Grab my nipples” he said.
I reached up with both hands and grabbed his big bologna nipples. They were hard like rubber erasers.
“Twist em” he growled.
I gave them a nice hard twist.
He groaned loudly as he was swing his dick back and forth in my face. It brushed my lips, but he never tried to put it in my mouth.
He leaned back, grunted and let loose the biggest load of cum all over me.
It was hot and thick and came out in multiple long ropey streams.
I pulled on his tits as he shot load after load all over me.
I could feel it running down my may chest, down over my dick and balls pooling in the crack of my ass like a waterfall.
He was shaking and grunting as he squeezed his juice out.
He pushed back off the wall, again standing naked in front of me. His small cock still hard with a drop of cum hanging from the tip.
He scooped it off with his finger, ate it and smiled down at me.
“Now pull up your pants and get the fuck out of here.” He said as he also pulled his jumper back on and zipped up.
I looked down at myself. I was covered in cum. It was on my shirt, all over my cock and balls and a lot had dripped down into my pants. I was soaked. There were no towels.
“Wear that shit home to your Mama little man.” He said opening the door and walking out.
I put my shirt down over my cum covered chest, pulled up my pants and walked out of the booth.
I tried to leave as quickly and quietly as possible, but on the way out the Man-b**st stopped me.
“If you ever come back be prepared to pay up boy.” He said. “You know what the price is.”
I bolted out the door and went home as fast as I could.
I never went back there.
My next gay experienced happened a few years later.
I had gotten off work late and missed my bus. It was late and I didn’t want to wait for the next one. My Apt was across town, but for some reason I decided to walk thinking maybe Id catch a ride.
Well it wasn’t long before I did.
Big Cadillac pulls up next to me and the passenger window goes down
“Hey! Need a ride?” says the driver.
I lean down and look in the window. Its an older man. 50’s maybe 60’s.
Grey beard and hair. Looks like Santa.
I tell him my Apt is all the way across town.
He says “Well I can take you there, but I might need you to put something in the tank. It’s a guzzler”
He kind of motions to the car, but then pats his big round belly.
Laughing like jolly old Santa.
I told him I didn’t have any money for gas.
He said, “Well, you know the old saying- Gas, Grass or Ass. No one rides for free.” and laughs again patting his big belly.
I laugh, because I know the phrase as a joke, but he leans over in the seat and says real serious, “Look, Ill give you a ride and you let me suck your dick. Deal?”
I stopped laughing and asked if he was serious.
He said, “Yep! Come on, hop in. Ill give you the best blowjob you’ve ever had.”
I really didn’t want to walk home and whos to know, right?
So, I got a ride home and a really great blowjob from Santa Claus.
The next time was after a long night partying. No trim was willing so I decided to stop in the nearest Porn Shop and spank out some knuckle babies.
As I was walking down the hall of video booths, someone “Psst!” me.
I looked over and there was a guy standing in one of the doorways.
“You looking for a blowjob?” he says to me.
I look him up and down. Clean cut, short mustache. Looks like a Cop.
“You a Cop?” I ask.
He smiles at me, “Today Im a cock sucking ******. You want your balls drained or not?” he says.
Im lit and horny and whos to know, right?
So I step into the booth and get my balls drained by a cum hungry cop.
The last time I had a M2M experience was when I was 26. I was out of town for work and had an evening to myself before heading home.
I went out and got a little trashed and ended up in another Porn Shop.
As I was starting to rub one out I heard the familiar “Psst. Hey! Suck your dick?”
I was in a closed and locked booth and didn’t know where it was coming from.
Then I saw a hole on the wall and in that hole was a bearded mouth.
“Gimme your cock!” the mouth said.
Im, again drunk, in a strange town and whos to know, right?
So I let a Hole suck me to 2 amazingly long juicy loads.
I didn’t even watch a movie.
And that was it.
After that I have live a standard straight life. No secret meetings on the D/L or encounters with strange Holes in the Wall. Didn’t even think about it in any way. I was very happy with my wife and k**s.
But now all that has changed.
Now I dream of my past encounters and fantasize about new ones. I am so cock hungry sometimes I think Im going crazy.
I want to go back to that first porn shop and just let that massive Man-b**st do everything to me!
That’s where I am now. That’s my “Story”.
Trying to make sense of these changes that Im going through.
Hopefully one day I will understand them and be comfortable with who/what I am.
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