MY PROUD LITTLE SECRET!
My bedtime story:
Every night i quiver in my bed with a recurring dream of being penetrated by a hard cock, getting goosebumps at the thought of being taken by man. As I lay in bed wearing my cheap fishnet lingerie, a one size too small black thong and a frilly bra, i caress my eager hole, while wrestling with my sexual frustration. I close my eyes and imagine a strong man lusting over me, needing to be his little sissy slut. Overwhelmed by the burning desire, I toss and turn, rubbing my fuck-hole, where all my sexual energy is concentrated, spreading my legs, and thinking of a mans godly, hard and veiny shaft. I want to devour everything a man would have to offer, taking his manly cock in my mouth and chocking on it before jumping on it and burying it balls-deep inside of me, milking it with my asspussy for every last drop of cum, like a godly cock deserves. The slutty girl that's hiding within me simply cannot wait any longer, she needs to be set free and show the world just how much of a born slut she really is!! I need a throbbing cock! I wish i was a real girl... I am in my prime, with an amazing tight body and longing for someone to make me theirs!
In those moments, while lost in lust, i open the drawer and grab my large stainless steel butt plug, squeeze it against my hungry hole, which i keep squeaky-clean due to regular douching and dieting. My fuckhole instantly recognizes my intentions and quickly opens up to swallow the plug whole. My heart starts pounding in my chest and my clitty (little penis) starts leaking precum. The sensation caused by the first thrust will always make my brain melt; it's like an amazing drug, as if a switch turns on and i become completely entranced. In that first thrust, as the thick plug enters my asshole (a pussy now), my eyes roll back and my mouth drools. My hole hastily tries to accommodate the large size, clinging and creating an intense feeling of extreme pleasure, causing me to let out little moans ("oh gaawd why do i love this sooo much") as a hastily bury it inside of me, filling me completely. Pushing the plug deep and quickly pulling on it, will cause me to start to moan loudly in ecstasy and exclaim things in the girliest possible voice like: "yes! fuck me hard! fuck me like the f.ggot slut i am", "baby i need your cock deep inside of me, stretch my little cunt out, please make me your little f*ggot cocksucker"` as if subliminally needing my neighbors to know how much of a sissy f.ggot i really am . The lewd sounds of my asspussy sucking on to the plug as it stirs inside of me are hypnotizing and the precum that's already flowing from my clit down between my legs is a testament to how much of an anal slut i am.
With my ass-pussy hungry for more, I grab my favorite girthy dildo (a purple silicon Tantus) and shove it into my mouth, gagging on it and lubing it for my needy ass as my pussyhole suckles onto that butt plug. While my little penis trembles in ecstasy, I choke and drool on the dildo, providing all of the necessary lube for what is to come. As i get ready to fuck that astonishing dildo, I pull the plug out of my deep ass-pussy, leaving it feeling empty. Panicked by that feeling of emptiness i quickly shove my huge purple dildo inside of me, stuffing my ass, determined to fuck my brains out, inserting it in one swift motion in order to create that stretching feeling that i crave. My little penis is rock hard, being well versed in the copious amounts of intense pleasure that is about to overwhelm my body.
By this stage I'm panting like a bitch in heat, completely ecstatic and cock-drunk, squeezing that dildo with my ass-cheeks every time it retracts and milking it as if it was a real cum-filled cock, as if I'm trying to extract every last drop of cum out of it. Sometime it is as if that moment is all i live for and all i think about. The intense pleasure of the plastic hard cock fucking me ripples through my body, and makes everything else seem irrelevant. My tummy spasms, my legs are shaking, my mouth is drooling and my ass is in heaven!! The only thing that is left is for me is to completely impale myself on that big hard veiny plastic cock that never tires of fucking me. The big bedroom mirror looming over me has seen it all time and time again. If it had a voice it would say to me: "Just call a plastic surgeon and put on an amazing set of plastic tits and become the bimbo girl you need to be! Stop wasting time fucking your self with toys already and living in a fantasy!!".
At that moment, looking at the mirror, all i see is a perfect version of myself, all girly and fucking my brains out. With all of this going on, my climax inevitably starts building up inside of me as my prostate is being beaten down to a pulp by that rock hard silicon dildo.
I plonk that dildo exactly in front of that tall bedroom mirror and sit on it as i proceed to fuck it in reverse cow girl (oh! i love fucking like that), making my clitty bounce on my tummy, as i thrust my hips up and down the huge Tantus cock as if my life depended on it, facing that large mirror squirming "oh my goooood YES!. YES FUCK ME LIKE THAT PLEEEASE BABY! HARDER BABY! "OH PLEASE DON'T STOP!", "OH BABY IF YOU CONTINUE TO FUCK ME LIKE THAT MY CLITTY WILL EXPLODE", "BABY MY ASSPUSSY IS FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU RIGHT NOOOW!" Talking like a whore will always make me cum harder.
Being a cockcrazed slut, before i cum, I instinctively hop on all fours, preparing myself to cum like a true bimbo girl should: arching my back and lifting my ass high, reaching over with my arm to fuck my ass as hard as i can while the dildo bottoms out in me hitting its plastic balls on mine. My eyes roll back and i make that whore face when my ass is completely full. As i take peaks between my legs at my mirror reflection, I marvel at how unbelievably sexy i look, as my amazing hole swallows every inch of that huge dildo. With every thrust, the dildo bottoms out in me sending a powerful shock-wave through my whole body, sweeping away my helpless, leaking penis, which is desperately trying to contain its cum, while clinging on to a body that has no use for it other than exciting me with its cute feminine size, reminding me of how far I've come from the days i though that my penis would be able to pleasure a woman to eventually realizing that it is just a cute accessory for men to fiddle with as they fuck my brains out.
The sound of the dildos balls slapping my ass, is more than i can handle! ! I start to orgasm, with my toes curling as i pummel my hole with all I've got, giving it what it craves most and causing it to spasm around that dildo as it cums, as if it has a mind of its own!! While proclaiming how much of a whore i am (oh GOD I LOVE CUMMING WITH A COCK DEEP INSIDE MY ASS, FILL ME UP BABY!"), my little hard penis can no longer contain itself and surrenders its love juices, spurting intensely as my whole body shakes and my hole prolapses around the dildo. For just that moment, with my clitty oozing cum and my asspussy still suckling the dildo, i am completely in trance.
As my orgasm begins to subside, with cum slowly dripping from my twitching clit, for a brief moment i feel that i have finally served my purpose in life; This is pure Sissy Bliss and my true destiny. The intensity of this moment justifies all the sexual frustration of being a sissy and reminds me of my true calling.
Removing the dildo from my wrecked fuck-hole makes a satisfying popping sound, leaving it empty and slightly gaping. Sometimes i feel that if i continue to fuck my asshole this hard, my useless penis just might wither and drop off, embarrassed by how useless it is on me, having been completely replaced by my asspussy as my primary sexual organ. The fact is that the more feminine and slutty i feel, the harder my orgasms are. This is the driving force of m transformation and where my sexuality is leading me. Eventually all i will be is a cock crazed bimbo, chocking on hard cocks. Wishing that when others look at me, they are embarrassed by how much of a lustful bimbo slut i have let me self become. This is my final fantasy!
But by postponing my true sissy calling, it has left a permanent mark onto my body, hidden between my round asscheeks. See, as i try to find ways to quench my sexual frustration and compete with the sissies in the videos i see online, i developed an obsession to stuff ever bigger dildos in my butthole. These large dildos make me feel extra feminine as my hole will resemble a pussy while fucking them, plus these huge dildos will hit my happy spot even better and harder than smaller ones <3. However these large plastic cocks have altered my fuckhole's appearance permanently. When i spread my ass and look at it in the mirror, my puffy and stretched fuckhole makes me feel a strange sense of accomplishment. I see my potential to satisfy even the biggest of cocks, limitless in terms of size, even those thick black cocks i drool over online. By constantly training my amazing hole, it now resembles a real pussy - something that would truly excite a man. My lustful looking hole has become my proud little secret and i long to share it with someone!
Introduction of an Anal Slut:
Ever since i was a young boy, acting girly and frilly would make my penis twitch and my tummy ache from excitement. I still remember the rush i first felt when i wore my sister's panties, looking in the bathroom mirror, marveling at my reflection. Even though i was young and still unable to ejaculate, wearing girly panties made my penis so hard that it hurt. Back then I couldn't make sense of this feeling or why acting girly excited me that much. I had my first homosexual experiences during middle-school. The first time was when a friend and I locked ourselves in my bedroom and I ... jerked his big cock...I remember telling him that it wouldn't be gay if i touched him with latex gloves, since it wouldn't be direct skin to skin contact (lol). He laid on my bed undressed and closed his eyes while i started caressing his big cock. It was a magnificent cock and i remember being shocked by his size, marveling at how huge he was compared to mine (mine was 13cm and he was 20cm and much thicker!) He was hung like a pornstar. The moment he hardened, my eyes lit up and i tried to contain my enthusiasm while stroking him harder and harder, with the palm of my hand completely full with his amazing thick meat. He was soon cumming and I felt sooo proud that i made him cum just by using my hands (just imagining what i could do if i put my whole body to use). Soon after that, i had my next homosexual experience with another friend of mine. He was a masculine looking guy and looked quite older than his age. It was a Friday night and i had invited him over to my house for a sleep-over. That night, as he lay next to me on an air mattress, i started rubbing his leg with my hand, trying to arouse him, while pretending that I was asleep and that it was an involuntary movement of my hand. As he started to become (visibly) horny, he turned towards me, pinned me down, (face down, ass up) grabbed me by the small of my back and positioned me ass up, face down, and started to dry hump me... I was so EXCITED that i almost moaned! (drowning my moans, hoping he wouldn't hear me). I couldn't believe how good that felt. My penis was hurting by how hard i was, rubbing inside my pajamas at every thrust. He continued to dry-hump me for a couple of minutes and then stopped... Unfortunately, being so young and timid we were afraid of escalating things any further (like kissing or jerking) and went back to sleep without any further physical contact. That night i stayed awake, imagining what could have happened if i had been more brave and forthcoming. The next day i mastered the courage and told him: "Hey! pretending that someone else fucks you is the best feeling in the world! Being a bottom is the most fun one can have!". He looked at me trying to make sense of what i was on about since he was obviously not a bottom and didn't sympathize with how i felt or why i was so turned on about what he did to me. I immediately felt ashamed, and I never spoke about it again, even though I remained sexually attracted to him for many years. However, that experience had been a turning point for me, something had been unlocked inside of me. From then on, when I masturbated, i did so while thinking of someone fucking my ass. Soon it was the only thought that could get me off and it completely consumed my sexual fantasies. Frustrated and ashamed by how aroused i'd become with those thoughts, i used to pressured my self to cum while thinking of a hot chick, trying to prove that i could still cum with hetero fantasies. However, as consistent as clockwork, as i neared an orgasm, I would almost unconsciously lift my knees to my stomach while the thought of me getting fucked in the ass would always creep in at the last moment as i was cumming. My penis would then explode and my asshole twitched, imagining of a hard cock railing me. That desire was so strong that i started to rub my hole in order to cum more intensely. My hole became sort of like my cum button... It was now my most intense erogenous zone. However, all of this pleasure, came with a lot of guilt. I was tormented by my newly discovered sexuality, which i still didn't fully comprehend, thinking it was probably just a phase towards my sexual maturity, and that it would probably soon pass.
The begging of my anal adventures:
The next year my parents gave me a personal computer which was connected to the internet. This is how my porn addiction started. I immediately got hooked to the anal category of porn sites, amazed by the huge cocks and how effortlessly a trained ass could please them. I was fascinated watching those girls get fucked by a big cock and i soon started to envy them taking all of these big cocks. I imagined what the sensation of a dick inside of me would feel like. I was scared that if i fingered my hole, I would cross some line that i wouldn't be able to uncross, that it would somehow change my life and seal my fate as a cock hungry f*ggot... as it happened.... Inevitably, for a developing sissy, that day came sooner rather than later: One day (i think i was 15) as i was watching this clip of a whore getting her ass destroyed by a monster cock, lost in lust, i couldn't wait any longer. I had reached a point where i just needed to be fucked! A raw force within that didn't care about my delicate self identity, which was already hanging from a thread. All that force cared about was my ass getting fucked!! Overwhelmed by my lust, I searched frantically around my room for objects that i could stick inside my ass. I stumbled on an old plastic spaceship toy. "That will do just fine", i thought. I placed the toy on the floor, smeared some vaseline on it (disgusting i know) and squatted on it trying to force it inside of me like a bitch in heat. It went in with a sudden jolt! It was a raw feeling of pain and pleasure. I started bouncing on it while jerking my little penis, imitating what i was seeing on my computer screen. My mind was completely gone, I moaned in ecstasy as my penis exploded with cum and my ass contracted around that toy, squeezing it hard. It was an orgasm unlike anything else before... I lay there on my knees, cum dripping from my penis, a blank gaze, and the toy still inside of me. That night as i thought about what had happened, i felt so embarrassed and ashamed of what i had done to myself. I cried from guilt, feeling my self identity change, unable to reconcile with the fact of loving something in my ass. I made a promise to myself to never fuck my ass again or else God should strike me down! (oh if only i knew how much of a butt slut i would end up becoming..) That promise was obviously short lived, since nature doesn't give a sh*t about anyone's promises. That same summer, i started regularly using the thick handle of a hairbrush to fuck my hungry ass with. I was so embarrassed by how much i loved it but when the mood struck, I couldn't help myself. My ass would now get horny too. It demanded to be pleasured, as if it had a mind of its own. Inevitably my asshole started replacing my penis as my primary sexual organ and became my primary sexual organ from which I received all sexual pleasure. I learned to care for it, cleanse it properly, fingered it regularly and trained it by shoving large objects like cucumbers, candles, and even homemade butt-plugs like socks wrapped in condoms, preparing it for greatness. With my ass now fast developing into a pussy, it was time to make a different promise to myself. In an effort to negotiate with reality, i moved the goalposts, promising to myself that even though i am unable to abstain from fucking my ass, i will certainly never let anyone know how much of a butt slut i am, as this is probably just a phase of my sexual maturity and all of this craziness will soon be over (LOL)... Durring school, i wondered if any of my classmates could tell how much i enjoyed playing with my butthole and if they could see through my hetero veil and perceive just how much of a closeted butt-slut freak i was. I wondered if there was anyone else like me. I felt alone... not having someone to share this part of me with. It consumed me in some ways. I was really nervous that people could tell what my fetish was. To make matters worse, my physique didn't help me pass off as masculine during my school years. I felt that i was always judged as a femboy. My butt protruded from my thin waist and i was skinny compared to my contemporaries. I was petrified that people could guess about my sexual fantasies just by how feminine my body looked. So I started to conceal my girly physique by wearing buggy clothes to school, to hide my hourglass body shape... It only got worse as my classmates started calling me gay because of the way i touched other boys or because of how much i avoided normal boy-sports like football or basketball. I was emotionally tormented...I remember crying a lot about that and it made me to close up to myself and hide my identity even more. Meanwhile, i started having sexual desires about some of my bullies, imagining sucking their dicks or getting gang-banged by them. The attention i received by them, even though negative, turned inside of me into a need for sexual affirmation. It was absurd, but my brain was turning into a total bimbo slut, abandoning all dignity in my sexual desires. The thought of me becoming a total slut, made me quiver with lust. That is when i started getting turned on by transsexual fantasies, where i imagined myself transformed as a bimbo shemale slut with huge boobs, getting plowed all day by big hard cocks... That thought still makes me quiver with lust...
Blossoming of an anal slut:
As school ended and i went to university, i finally moved from my parents house. That new-found freedom also meant that i could get my own mail by post without the fear of my parents finding out. So, naturally, like any boy at my age would do, when i moved to my dorm, the first thing i did was order a big fat dildo to fuck my ass with!! I was trembling from excitement when i received it! I remember rushing to he post office, grabbing the package from the officers hand, embarrassed that he might have known the contents of the elongated box he handed me. Elated I headed quickly back to my dorm, light-headed from hyperventilating about what was to ensue. When I arrived at my room I quickly opened the box. The sight of the realistic dildo, was something to behold. It was an amazing large silicon cock with balls, replicating some famous porn-star's dick. I was feeling nauseated from lust and had butterflies in my stomach. I quickly showered to clean out my hole so i could experience the feeling of a realistic cock deep inside of me!! I rinsed out my insides, removing the shower head and pressing the nozzle against my hungry hole to douche my intestines, making sure everything was squeaky clean. I then thoroughly lubed my hole, inside and out, inserting 4 fingers and working them in me till my knuckles. As my hole suckled onto my fingers, i sucked onto the magnificent dildo, wrapping my tongue around it and gagging on it. It could barely fit in my mouth. My knees trembled and my penis was leaking with anticipation. With my hole now all loose, I placed the big dildo on the shower's floor and pressed the cock's head against my hole's entrance. It was electrifying. As the dildo made its way inside of me, it suddenly `popped in, with my hole eagerly swallowing it in one go. I went cross-eyed... IT WAS HEAVEN ON EARTH. Absolute euphoria... FINALLY... A cock had penetrated me!!! My soft and pink insides wrapped around it, caressing it with contractions. The veiny texture, of that dildo only amplified the feeling of ecstasy as i squeezed it deeper and deeper, stretching my hole to its limit. It was hitting my pleasure spot. I was begging to be fucked hard, the dildo had bottomed out and i was now sitting on the balls with the shaft completely buried inside my drooling hole. It was a mind altering feeling. "So this is what all of this craziness around big cocks is about", i thought... With that fat dildo completely in me, all of my masculinity was washed away, liberating me of my pretenses. I had finally surrendered to cock... I was born for this, there could be no other explanation for why i loved it so much. Trembling as if it was my kryptonite, sucking all of my energy... I stood up shakily while holding the dildo inside of me, and pressed my ass against the shower's wall, ready to fuck it like a slut in heat. The dildo's suction cup clung onto the wall and it pushed back in me. I gasped for air. I started rocking my hips back and forth against the wall, fucking my ass like never before. I bounced on it manically, panting and screaming from pleasure. My penis was flapping, helplessly bouncing against my tummy as my ass was being fucked. As i impaled myself on that dildo harder and harder, I was falling in love with it, sealing my fate as a cock hungry slut forever. I suddenly started feeling a warm sensation building up inside my belly. I was on my toes, with my ass banging on the shower's wall, my hands against the glass partition, pushing my body forcefully against the wall and driving that dildo deeper and harder when suddenly it happened! I started squirting a transparent fluid from my cock! It wasn't cum, but it felt like I was cumming!! My penis was ejecting its juices (hands free) while i pummeled my hole. IT WAS PURE BLISS. I moaned and fucked, my mouth drooling as my penis continued to eject its clear fluid again and again. Every orgasm came as a sudden wave, contracting my ass, pushing my hole out like a rose, prolapsing around the dildo and ejecting it out as my knees trembled and my body ached from lust. I couldn't take it any more and I fell down to my knees, exhausted. After 3 consecutive orgasms, cum drunk, I grabbed that dildo again while exclaiming "FUCK ME LIKE A SLUT!!, I NEED THIS BABY" I'VE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS, I' VE BEEN SUCH A GOOD GIRL PLEASE FUCK MEEEE". As i proclaimed what a slut i was, I started shoving the cock in and out of my wrecked hole, as if it was a broken pussy, my hole helplessly prolapsing around the dildo, unable to keep up with the powerful thrusts i was subjecting it to, and my penis ready to explode... Then it happened again! Another orgasm, no real cum but just this clear liquid oozing out of my penis and the sensation of cumming! again!! I hadn't touched my penis, yet with the dildo was pummeling my prostate, and my anal pleasure was so intense that it was causing my penis (now officially a clit) to ejaculate its fluids! I kept fucking my blown out ass (now officially an asspussy) for a 2 hours straight until i was drenched in sweat, cum, and love juices, completely spent. So that was the morning that i had my first multiple orgasm experience ! I came so hard that it was clear that there was no turning back. I became a cock hungry slut right there and then. It wasn't only the physicality of being fucked by a realistic cock, or that my asshole was completely in love with it, it was the fact that i finally felt like a real girl. What remained of my false sense of masculinity faded away, and was being replaced by a bimbo, sissy slut identity of hypersexuality. A need to prove to myself what a huge slut i was and what a good girl i could become. It was that final piece of the puzzle that clicked together all of my sexual energy - i was now a sissy!!!
Blossoming of a sissy size-queen nymph:
In the following months i was so infatuated by this extreme pleasure, that i ordered countless of anal toys and dildos, i just couldn't get enough of them. Boxes of sex toys would arrive constantly. It became an addiction! My grades and social life, suffered since i basically spent all of my time and money on sex toys, locked inside my dorm room, fucking my brains out day in, day out! After years of repression, i had finally accepted how much of a sissy slut i was. Giving into my needs completely. Dildos, gag balls, inflatable butt plugs, anal beads, lingerie, wigs, thongs, bikinis, fishnet stockings, mini skirts, high heels, fake breasts and bras. My dorm room was filled to the brim with sex toys and stripper clothes. I wanted to have them all! Even those ridiculously humongous dildos that were impossible to fit inside of me, but i still tried to every week as if it was my life's goal. Cross dressing became my absolute infatuation. After class, i would run back to my dorm, dress up in stockings, thongs, skirts and high heels and fucked my ass for 3 hours straight while filming it. Looking at my home movies and marveling at how much i looked like a hot girl: When you are completely shaved your pink dress rubs against your naked thighs. And then the dildo goes all the way inside of you. And you make that face like a total whore, eyes rolled and mouth wide open. My sissy identity was accelerating while my anal addiction led me to stretch my hole to its absolute physical limits in search of ever greater pleasure. I went from regular girth dildos to 3 inch-diameter dildos and plugs within the first year. As soon as i wrestled one thick dildo up my ass i bought a slightly thicker one. I was now addicted to anal stretching and had developed into a full fledged size-queen nymph.
A closeted cock-hungry sissy:
Graduating from uni and fast forward to today, prancing around my house in high heels, body wrapped in fishnet lingerie, with a hefty dildo hanging from my loose ass, is my absolute favorite thing. There is no better feeling than getting dressed up in sexy feminine clothes, trying new panties, dresses and heels! It is just too much fun to be a girl! I want to look like a girl, feel like a girl and think like a girl. A girly, ultra feminine sissy! But i also need something extra, i need to be a slut!! I need men to look at me and want to shove their cock in my mouth just to shut my dumb brain off. I've taken good care of my body these years, regularly training my glutes, keeping my legs slim, thickening my asscheeks and keeping a small waist and tight tummy through careful dieting and hydration of my skin, so i can stay fuckable for many years to come. All of this effort is rewarded when i slide into the sexiest and girliest of outfits, imagining of a man fucking me like the slut i am! I love bending over to reveal the butt plug that is nowadays always hiding between my asscheeks, buried deep in the center of my universe (my perfect hole), making my daily chores just a little more exciting. Interacting with people while plugged is an amazing experience, trying to hold a straight face while your ass is in heaven. Bending in front of people, will make me blush from excitement. Walking down the road like a f*ggot slut, just to invite people to look at my plump ass is so intoxicating. However, when im at my house, I simply love the feeling of the plug stirring up my insides as i prance in black stiletto heels with my legs overlapping in each step like a catwalk model. By now, obviously you've realized just how much of a sissy I've let myself become; My sexuality, put plainly, dictates that HARD cocks are my god and my asshole is their temple of worship. My job is to keep my body looking hot, and my hole ready to be fucked... Making a man lust over me is my dream <3.
Thank you for reading <3 xx
Every night i quiver in my bed with a recurring dream of being penetrated by a hard cock, getting goosebumps at the thought of being taken by man. As I lay in bed wearing my cheap fishnet lingerie, a one size too small black thong and a frilly bra, i caress my eager hole, while wrestling with my sexual frustration. I close my eyes and imagine a strong man lusting over me, needing to be his little sissy slut. Overwhelmed by the burning desire, I toss and turn, rubbing my fuck-hole, where all my sexual energy is concentrated, spreading my legs, and thinking of a mans godly, hard and veiny shaft. I want to devour everything a man would have to offer, taking his manly cock in my mouth and chocking on it before jumping on it and burying it balls-deep inside of me, milking it with my asspussy for every last drop of cum, like a godly cock deserves. The slutty girl that's hiding within me simply cannot wait any longer, she needs to be set free and show the world just how much of a born slut she really is!! I need a throbbing cock! I wish i was a real girl... I am in my prime, with an amazing tight body and longing for someone to make me theirs!
In those moments, while lost in lust, i open the drawer and grab my large stainless steel butt plug, squeeze it against my hungry hole, which i keep squeaky-clean due to regular douching and dieting. My fuckhole instantly recognizes my intentions and quickly opens up to swallow the plug whole. My heart starts pounding in my chest and my clitty (little penis) starts leaking precum. The sensation caused by the first thrust will always make my brain melt; it's like an amazing drug, as if a switch turns on and i become completely entranced. In that first thrust, as the thick plug enters my asshole (a pussy now), my eyes roll back and my mouth drools. My hole hastily tries to accommodate the large size, clinging and creating an intense feeling of extreme pleasure, causing me to let out little moans ("oh gaawd why do i love this sooo much") as a hastily bury it inside of me, filling me completely. Pushing the plug deep and quickly pulling on it, will cause me to start to moan loudly in ecstasy and exclaim things in the girliest possible voice like: "yes! fuck me hard! fuck me like the f.ggot slut i am", "baby i need your cock deep inside of me, stretch my little cunt out, please make me your little f*ggot cocksucker"` as if subliminally needing my neighbors to know how much of a sissy f.ggot i really am . The lewd sounds of my asspussy sucking on to the plug as it stirs inside of me are hypnotizing and the precum that's already flowing from my clit down between my legs is a testament to how much of an anal slut i am.
With my ass-pussy hungry for more, I grab my favorite girthy dildo (a purple silicon Tantus) and shove it into my mouth, gagging on it and lubing it for my needy ass as my pussyhole suckles onto that butt plug. While my little penis trembles in ecstasy, I choke and drool on the dildo, providing all of the necessary lube for what is to come. As i get ready to fuck that astonishing dildo, I pull the plug out of my deep ass-pussy, leaving it feeling empty. Panicked by that feeling of emptiness i quickly shove my huge purple dildo inside of me, stuffing my ass, determined to fuck my brains out, inserting it in one swift motion in order to create that stretching feeling that i crave. My little penis is rock hard, being well versed in the copious amounts of intense pleasure that is about to overwhelm my body.
By this stage I'm panting like a bitch in heat, completely ecstatic and cock-drunk, squeezing that dildo with my ass-cheeks every time it retracts and milking it as if it was a real cum-filled cock, as if I'm trying to extract every last drop of cum out of it. Sometime it is as if that moment is all i live for and all i think about. The intense pleasure of the plastic hard cock fucking me ripples through my body, and makes everything else seem irrelevant. My tummy spasms, my legs are shaking, my mouth is drooling and my ass is in heaven!! The only thing that is left is for me is to completely impale myself on that big hard veiny plastic cock that never tires of fucking me. The big bedroom mirror looming over me has seen it all time and time again. If it had a voice it would say to me: "Just call a plastic surgeon and put on an amazing set of plastic tits and become the bimbo girl you need to be! Stop wasting time fucking your self with toys already and living in a fantasy!!".
At that moment, looking at the mirror, all i see is a perfect version of myself, all girly and fucking my brains out. With all of this going on, my climax inevitably starts building up inside of me as my prostate is being beaten down to a pulp by that rock hard silicon dildo.
I plonk that dildo exactly in front of that tall bedroom mirror and sit on it as i proceed to fuck it in reverse cow girl (oh! i love fucking like that), making my clitty bounce on my tummy, as i thrust my hips up and down the huge Tantus cock as if my life depended on it, facing that large mirror squirming "oh my goooood YES!. YES FUCK ME LIKE THAT PLEEEASE BABY! HARDER BABY! "OH PLEASE DON'T STOP!", "OH BABY IF YOU CONTINUE TO FUCK ME LIKE THAT MY CLITTY WILL EXPLODE", "BABY MY ASSPUSSY IS FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU RIGHT NOOOW!" Talking like a whore will always make me cum harder.
Being a cockcrazed slut, before i cum, I instinctively hop on all fours, preparing myself to cum like a true bimbo girl should: arching my back and lifting my ass high, reaching over with my arm to fuck my ass as hard as i can while the dildo bottoms out in me hitting its plastic balls on mine. My eyes roll back and i make that whore face when my ass is completely full. As i take peaks between my legs at my mirror reflection, I marvel at how unbelievably sexy i look, as my amazing hole swallows every inch of that huge dildo. With every thrust, the dildo bottoms out in me sending a powerful shock-wave through my whole body, sweeping away my helpless, leaking penis, which is desperately trying to contain its cum, while clinging on to a body that has no use for it other than exciting me with its cute feminine size, reminding me of how far I've come from the days i though that my penis would be able to pleasure a woman to eventually realizing that it is just a cute accessory for men to fiddle with as they fuck my brains out.
The sound of the dildos balls slapping my ass, is more than i can handle! ! I start to orgasm, with my toes curling as i pummel my hole with all I've got, giving it what it craves most and causing it to spasm around that dildo as it cums, as if it has a mind of its own!! While proclaiming how much of a whore i am (oh GOD I LOVE CUMMING WITH A COCK DEEP INSIDE MY ASS, FILL ME UP BABY!"), my little hard penis can no longer contain itself and surrenders its love juices, spurting intensely as my whole body shakes and my hole prolapses around the dildo. For just that moment, with my clitty oozing cum and my asspussy still suckling the dildo, i am completely in trance.
As my orgasm begins to subside, with cum slowly dripping from my twitching clit, for a brief moment i feel that i have finally served my purpose in life; This is pure Sissy Bliss and my true destiny. The intensity of this moment justifies all the sexual frustration of being a sissy and reminds me of my true calling.
Removing the dildo from my wrecked fuck-hole makes a satisfying popping sound, leaving it empty and slightly gaping. Sometimes i feel that if i continue to fuck my asshole this hard, my useless penis just might wither and drop off, embarrassed by how useless it is on me, having been completely replaced by my asspussy as my primary sexual organ. The fact is that the more feminine and slutty i feel, the harder my orgasms are. This is the driving force of m transformation and where my sexuality is leading me. Eventually all i will be is a cock crazed bimbo, chocking on hard cocks. Wishing that when others look at me, they are embarrassed by how much of a lustful bimbo slut i have let me self become. This is my final fantasy!
But by postponing my true sissy calling, it has left a permanent mark onto my body, hidden between my round asscheeks. See, as i try to find ways to quench my sexual frustration and compete with the sissies in the videos i see online, i developed an obsession to stuff ever bigger dildos in my butthole. These large dildos make me feel extra feminine as my hole will resemble a pussy while fucking them, plus these huge dildos will hit my happy spot even better and harder than smaller ones <3. However these large plastic cocks have altered my fuckhole's appearance permanently. When i spread my ass and look at it in the mirror, my puffy and stretched fuckhole makes me feel a strange sense of accomplishment. I see my potential to satisfy even the biggest of cocks, limitless in terms of size, even those thick black cocks i drool over online. By constantly training my amazing hole, it now resembles a real pussy - something that would truly excite a man. My lustful looking hole has become my proud little secret and i long to share it with someone!
Introduction of an Anal Slut:
Ever since i was a young boy, acting girly and frilly would make my penis twitch and my tummy ache from excitement. I still remember the rush i first felt when i wore my sister's panties, looking in the bathroom mirror, marveling at my reflection. Even though i was young and still unable to ejaculate, wearing girly panties made my penis so hard that it hurt. Back then I couldn't make sense of this feeling or why acting girly excited me that much. I had my first homosexual experiences during middle-school. The first time was when a friend and I locked ourselves in my bedroom and I ... jerked his big cock...I remember telling him that it wouldn't be gay if i touched him with latex gloves, since it wouldn't be direct skin to skin contact (lol). He laid on my bed undressed and closed his eyes while i started caressing his big cock. It was a magnificent cock and i remember being shocked by his size, marveling at how huge he was compared to mine (mine was 13cm and he was 20cm and much thicker!) He was hung like a pornstar. The moment he hardened, my eyes lit up and i tried to contain my enthusiasm while stroking him harder and harder, with the palm of my hand completely full with his amazing thick meat. He was soon cumming and I felt sooo proud that i made him cum just by using my hands (just imagining what i could do if i put my whole body to use). Soon after that, i had my next homosexual experience with another friend of mine. He was a masculine looking guy and looked quite older than his age. It was a Friday night and i had invited him over to my house for a sleep-over. That night, as he lay next to me on an air mattress, i started rubbing his leg with my hand, trying to arouse him, while pretending that I was asleep and that it was an involuntary movement of my hand. As he started to become (visibly) horny, he turned towards me, pinned me down, (face down, ass up) grabbed me by the small of my back and positioned me ass up, face down, and started to dry hump me... I was so EXCITED that i almost moaned! (drowning my moans, hoping he wouldn't hear me). I couldn't believe how good that felt. My penis was hurting by how hard i was, rubbing inside my pajamas at every thrust. He continued to dry-hump me for a couple of minutes and then stopped... Unfortunately, being so young and timid we were afraid of escalating things any further (like kissing or jerking) and went back to sleep without any further physical contact. That night i stayed awake, imagining what could have happened if i had been more brave and forthcoming. The next day i mastered the courage and told him: "Hey! pretending that someone else fucks you is the best feeling in the world! Being a bottom is the most fun one can have!". He looked at me trying to make sense of what i was on about since he was obviously not a bottom and didn't sympathize with how i felt or why i was so turned on about what he did to me. I immediately felt ashamed, and I never spoke about it again, even though I remained sexually attracted to him for many years. However, that experience had been a turning point for me, something had been unlocked inside of me. From then on, when I masturbated, i did so while thinking of someone fucking my ass. Soon it was the only thought that could get me off and it completely consumed my sexual fantasies. Frustrated and ashamed by how aroused i'd become with those thoughts, i used to pressured my self to cum while thinking of a hot chick, trying to prove that i could still cum with hetero fantasies. However, as consistent as clockwork, as i neared an orgasm, I would almost unconsciously lift my knees to my stomach while the thought of me getting fucked in the ass would always creep in at the last moment as i was cumming. My penis would then explode and my asshole twitched, imagining of a hard cock railing me. That desire was so strong that i started to rub my hole in order to cum more intensely. My hole became sort of like my cum button... It was now my most intense erogenous zone. However, all of this pleasure, came with a lot of guilt. I was tormented by my newly discovered sexuality, which i still didn't fully comprehend, thinking it was probably just a phase towards my sexual maturity, and that it would probably soon pass.
The begging of my anal adventures:
The next year my parents gave me a personal computer which was connected to the internet. This is how my porn addiction started. I immediately got hooked to the anal category of porn sites, amazed by the huge cocks and how effortlessly a trained ass could please them. I was fascinated watching those girls get fucked by a big cock and i soon started to envy them taking all of these big cocks. I imagined what the sensation of a dick inside of me would feel like. I was scared that if i fingered my hole, I would cross some line that i wouldn't be able to uncross, that it would somehow change my life and seal my fate as a cock hungry f*ggot... as it happened.... Inevitably, for a developing sissy, that day came sooner rather than later: One day (i think i was 15) as i was watching this clip of a whore getting her ass destroyed by a monster cock, lost in lust, i couldn't wait any longer. I had reached a point where i just needed to be fucked! A raw force within that didn't care about my delicate self identity, which was already hanging from a thread. All that force cared about was my ass getting fucked!! Overwhelmed by my lust, I searched frantically around my room for objects that i could stick inside my ass. I stumbled on an old plastic spaceship toy. "That will do just fine", i thought. I placed the toy on the floor, smeared some vaseline on it (disgusting i know) and squatted on it trying to force it inside of me like a bitch in heat. It went in with a sudden jolt! It was a raw feeling of pain and pleasure. I started bouncing on it while jerking my little penis, imitating what i was seeing on my computer screen. My mind was completely gone, I moaned in ecstasy as my penis exploded with cum and my ass contracted around that toy, squeezing it hard. It was an orgasm unlike anything else before... I lay there on my knees, cum dripping from my penis, a blank gaze, and the toy still inside of me. That night as i thought about what had happened, i felt so embarrassed and ashamed of what i had done to myself. I cried from guilt, feeling my self identity change, unable to reconcile with the fact of loving something in my ass. I made a promise to myself to never fuck my ass again or else God should strike me down! (oh if only i knew how much of a butt slut i would end up becoming..) That promise was obviously short lived, since nature doesn't give a sh*t about anyone's promises. That same summer, i started regularly using the thick handle of a hairbrush to fuck my hungry ass with. I was so embarrassed by how much i loved it but when the mood struck, I couldn't help myself. My ass would now get horny too. It demanded to be pleasured, as if it had a mind of its own. Inevitably my asshole started replacing my penis as my primary sexual organ and became my primary sexual organ from which I received all sexual pleasure. I learned to care for it, cleanse it properly, fingered it regularly and trained it by shoving large objects like cucumbers, candles, and even homemade butt-plugs like socks wrapped in condoms, preparing it for greatness. With my ass now fast developing into a pussy, it was time to make a different promise to myself. In an effort to negotiate with reality, i moved the goalposts, promising to myself that even though i am unable to abstain from fucking my ass, i will certainly never let anyone know how much of a butt slut i am, as this is probably just a phase of my sexual maturity and all of this craziness will soon be over (LOL)... Durring school, i wondered if any of my classmates could tell how much i enjoyed playing with my butthole and if they could see through my hetero veil and perceive just how much of a closeted butt-slut freak i was. I wondered if there was anyone else like me. I felt alone... not having someone to share this part of me with. It consumed me in some ways. I was really nervous that people could tell what my fetish was. To make matters worse, my physique didn't help me pass off as masculine during my school years. I felt that i was always judged as a femboy. My butt protruded from my thin waist and i was skinny compared to my contemporaries. I was petrified that people could guess about my sexual fantasies just by how feminine my body looked. So I started to conceal my girly physique by wearing buggy clothes to school, to hide my hourglass body shape... It only got worse as my classmates started calling me gay because of the way i touched other boys or because of how much i avoided normal boy-sports like football or basketball. I was emotionally tormented...I remember crying a lot about that and it made me to close up to myself and hide my identity even more. Meanwhile, i started having sexual desires about some of my bullies, imagining sucking their dicks or getting gang-banged by them. The attention i received by them, even though negative, turned inside of me into a need for sexual affirmation. It was absurd, but my brain was turning into a total bimbo slut, abandoning all dignity in my sexual desires. The thought of me becoming a total slut, made me quiver with lust. That is when i started getting turned on by transsexual fantasies, where i imagined myself transformed as a bimbo shemale slut with huge boobs, getting plowed all day by big hard cocks... That thought still makes me quiver with lust...
Blossoming of an anal slut:
As school ended and i went to university, i finally moved from my parents house. That new-found freedom also meant that i could get my own mail by post without the fear of my parents finding out. So, naturally, like any boy at my age would do, when i moved to my dorm, the first thing i did was order a big fat dildo to fuck my ass with!! I was trembling from excitement when i received it! I remember rushing to he post office, grabbing the package from the officers hand, embarrassed that he might have known the contents of the elongated box he handed me. Elated I headed quickly back to my dorm, light-headed from hyperventilating about what was to ensue. When I arrived at my room I quickly opened the box. The sight of the realistic dildo, was something to behold. It was an amazing large silicon cock with balls, replicating some famous porn-star's dick. I was feeling nauseated from lust and had butterflies in my stomach. I quickly showered to clean out my hole so i could experience the feeling of a realistic cock deep inside of me!! I rinsed out my insides, removing the shower head and pressing the nozzle against my hungry hole to douche my intestines, making sure everything was squeaky clean. I then thoroughly lubed my hole, inside and out, inserting 4 fingers and working them in me till my knuckles. As my hole suckled onto my fingers, i sucked onto the magnificent dildo, wrapping my tongue around it and gagging on it. It could barely fit in my mouth. My knees trembled and my penis was leaking with anticipation. With my hole now all loose, I placed the big dildo on the shower's floor and pressed the cock's head against my hole's entrance. It was electrifying. As the dildo made its way inside of me, it suddenly `popped in, with my hole eagerly swallowing it in one go. I went cross-eyed... IT WAS HEAVEN ON EARTH. Absolute euphoria... FINALLY... A cock had penetrated me!!! My soft and pink insides wrapped around it, caressing it with contractions. The veiny texture, of that dildo only amplified the feeling of ecstasy as i squeezed it deeper and deeper, stretching my hole to its limit. It was hitting my pleasure spot. I was begging to be fucked hard, the dildo had bottomed out and i was now sitting on the balls with the shaft completely buried inside my drooling hole. It was a mind altering feeling. "So this is what all of this craziness around big cocks is about", i thought... With that fat dildo completely in me, all of my masculinity was washed away, liberating me of my pretenses. I had finally surrendered to cock... I was born for this, there could be no other explanation for why i loved it so much. Trembling as if it was my kryptonite, sucking all of my energy... I stood up shakily while holding the dildo inside of me, and pressed my ass against the shower's wall, ready to fuck it like a slut in heat. The dildo's suction cup clung onto the wall and it pushed back in me. I gasped for air. I started rocking my hips back and forth against the wall, fucking my ass like never before. I bounced on it manically, panting and screaming from pleasure. My penis was flapping, helplessly bouncing against my tummy as my ass was being fucked. As i impaled myself on that dildo harder and harder, I was falling in love with it, sealing my fate as a cock hungry slut forever. I suddenly started feeling a warm sensation building up inside my belly. I was on my toes, with my ass banging on the shower's wall, my hands against the glass partition, pushing my body forcefully against the wall and driving that dildo deeper and harder when suddenly it happened! I started squirting a transparent fluid from my cock! It wasn't cum, but it felt like I was cumming!! My penis was ejecting its juices (hands free) while i pummeled my hole. IT WAS PURE BLISS. I moaned and fucked, my mouth drooling as my penis continued to eject its clear fluid again and again. Every orgasm came as a sudden wave, contracting my ass, pushing my hole out like a rose, prolapsing around the dildo and ejecting it out as my knees trembled and my body ached from lust. I couldn't take it any more and I fell down to my knees, exhausted. After 3 consecutive orgasms, cum drunk, I grabbed that dildo again while exclaiming "FUCK ME LIKE A SLUT!!, I NEED THIS BABY" I'VE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS, I' VE BEEN SUCH A GOOD GIRL PLEASE FUCK MEEEE". As i proclaimed what a slut i was, I started shoving the cock in and out of my wrecked hole, as if it was a broken pussy, my hole helplessly prolapsing around the dildo, unable to keep up with the powerful thrusts i was subjecting it to, and my penis ready to explode... Then it happened again! Another orgasm, no real cum but just this clear liquid oozing out of my penis and the sensation of cumming! again!! I hadn't touched my penis, yet with the dildo was pummeling my prostate, and my anal pleasure was so intense that it was causing my penis (now officially a clit) to ejaculate its fluids! I kept fucking my blown out ass (now officially an asspussy) for a 2 hours straight until i was drenched in sweat, cum, and love juices, completely spent. So that was the morning that i had my first multiple orgasm experience ! I came so hard that it was clear that there was no turning back. I became a cock hungry slut right there and then. It wasn't only the physicality of being fucked by a realistic cock, or that my asshole was completely in love with it, it was the fact that i finally felt like a real girl. What remained of my false sense of masculinity faded away, and was being replaced by a bimbo, sissy slut identity of hypersexuality. A need to prove to myself what a huge slut i was and what a good girl i could become. It was that final piece of the puzzle that clicked together all of my sexual energy - i was now a sissy!!!
Blossoming of a sissy size-queen nymph:
In the following months i was so infatuated by this extreme pleasure, that i ordered countless of anal toys and dildos, i just couldn't get enough of them. Boxes of sex toys would arrive constantly. It became an addiction! My grades and social life, suffered since i basically spent all of my time and money on sex toys, locked inside my dorm room, fucking my brains out day in, day out! After years of repression, i had finally accepted how much of a sissy slut i was. Giving into my needs completely. Dildos, gag balls, inflatable butt plugs, anal beads, lingerie, wigs, thongs, bikinis, fishnet stockings, mini skirts, high heels, fake breasts and bras. My dorm room was filled to the brim with sex toys and stripper clothes. I wanted to have them all! Even those ridiculously humongous dildos that were impossible to fit inside of me, but i still tried to every week as if it was my life's goal. Cross dressing became my absolute infatuation. After class, i would run back to my dorm, dress up in stockings, thongs, skirts and high heels and fucked my ass for 3 hours straight while filming it. Looking at my home movies and marveling at how much i looked like a hot girl: When you are completely shaved your pink dress rubs against your naked thighs. And then the dildo goes all the way inside of you. And you make that face like a total whore, eyes rolled and mouth wide open. My sissy identity was accelerating while my anal addiction led me to stretch my hole to its absolute physical limits in search of ever greater pleasure. I went from regular girth dildos to 3 inch-diameter dildos and plugs within the first year. As soon as i wrestled one thick dildo up my ass i bought a slightly thicker one. I was now addicted to anal stretching and had developed into a full fledged size-queen nymph.
A closeted cock-hungry sissy:
Graduating from uni and fast forward to today, prancing around my house in high heels, body wrapped in fishnet lingerie, with a hefty dildo hanging from my loose ass, is my absolute favorite thing. There is no better feeling than getting dressed up in sexy feminine clothes, trying new panties, dresses and heels! It is just too much fun to be a girl! I want to look like a girl, feel like a girl and think like a girl. A girly, ultra feminine sissy! But i also need something extra, i need to be a slut!! I need men to look at me and want to shove their cock in my mouth just to shut my dumb brain off. I've taken good care of my body these years, regularly training my glutes, keeping my legs slim, thickening my asscheeks and keeping a small waist and tight tummy through careful dieting and hydration of my skin, so i can stay fuckable for many years to come. All of this effort is rewarded when i slide into the sexiest and girliest of outfits, imagining of a man fucking me like the slut i am! I love bending over to reveal the butt plug that is nowadays always hiding between my asscheeks, buried deep in the center of my universe (my perfect hole), making my daily chores just a little more exciting. Interacting with people while plugged is an amazing experience, trying to hold a straight face while your ass is in heaven. Bending in front of people, will make me blush from excitement. Walking down the road like a f*ggot slut, just to invite people to look at my plump ass is so intoxicating. However, when im at my house, I simply love the feeling of the plug stirring up my insides as i prance in black stiletto heels with my legs overlapping in each step like a catwalk model. By now, obviously you've realized just how much of a sissy I've let myself become; My sexuality, put plainly, dictates that HARD cocks are my god and my asshole is their temple of worship. My job is to keep my body looking hot, and my hole ready to be fucked... Making a man lust over me is my dream <3.
Thank you for reading <3 xx
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