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my story
i was a young boy who wanted to be a girl wearing secretly girls clothes and dreaming of all the same things girls did. However i got catched and the result was immediately a catholic boarding school where i was made to be a man( a good looking sportive male all the girls wanted) . Ever since i struggled relationship after relationship .It never really worked Having sex with a woman felt always like being forced to do only one thing. Get her pregnant but i never felt any orgasm when my sperm arrived. It just came but no feeling . Every woman always told me that's my orgasm but why i never feel it? But i felt other things like my nipples hurting that i just had the need to touch and especially being touched . I get wet between my legs . But then every person i have been with never wanted to touch me or get more intimate(i felt like being forced to do my mans job even if i hated it) After getting married twice and having different girlfriends it never lasted and every time a woman would be infertile i would be completely disinterested( i guess it was a part of my programming when i was in boarding school)I never really wanted to be a boyfriend .I wanted to be a girlfriend and be with the other girls doing girls things. As older i get i feel more and more the desire to be a WOMAN. I got so jealous of anything female like clothing,hair,makeup and the worst was not being able to carry a c***d inside of me.I would have given anything for that. i still fight my demons and am scared but the desire to be a woman is just growing and growing. i am a professional artist and also work in landscaping and construction creating beautiful things for others. I wished i could be free of all this brainwashing programming they did to me when i was a boy and they found out i was transgender . To be honest i am scared of man and i love woman and everything that's female( i dream of a penis but not mine(i hate mine i would have loved to have a vagina instead) and i really need a real friend and someone who really shows me what good sex feels like.
i was a young boy who wanted to be a girl wearing secretly girls clothes and dreaming of all the same things girls did. However i got catched and the result was immediately a catholic boarding school where i was made to be a man( a good looking sportive male all the girls wanted) . Ever since i struggled relationship after relationship .It never really worked Having sex with a woman felt always like being forced to do only one thing. Get her pregnant but i never felt any orgasm when my sperm arrived. It just came but no feeling . Every woman always told me that's my orgasm but why i never feel it? But i felt other things like my nipples hurting that i just had the need to touch and especially being touched . I get wet between my legs . But then every person i have been with never wanted to touch me or get more intimate(i felt like being forced to do my mans job even if i hated it) After getting married twice and having different girlfriends it never lasted and every time a woman would be infertile i would be completely disinterested( i guess it was a part of my programming when i was in boarding school)I never really wanted to be a boyfriend .I wanted to be a girlfriend and be with the other girls doing girls things. As older i get i feel more and more the desire to be a WOMAN. I got so jealous of anything female like clothing,hair,makeup and the worst was not being able to carry a c***d inside of me.I would have given anything for that. i still fight my demons and am scared but the desire to be a woman is just growing and growing. i am a professional artist and also work in landscaping and construction creating beautiful things for others. I wished i could be free of all this brainwashing programming they did to me when i was a boy and they found out i was transgender . To be honest i am scared of man and i love woman and everything that's female( i dream of a penis but not mine(i hate mine i would have loved to have a vagina instead) and i really need a real friend and someone who really shows me what good sex feels like.
4年前
