Horny CD in my new tights...

Hello everyone. Hope you are all doing well, and Jacking those Perverted Cocks. I'm just here Xdressing, I bought new tights today. They are soo cute. It's the first time I've purchased footless tights. They are wonderfull. So I'm in grey tights, and a grey leotard, with my favorite "frilly little anle sox". Smoking a little meth and getting incredibly horny. I'm actually thinking about getting my toys out and try again to train my pussy(asshole). Last time was horrible. I want a little gape but am having trouble. My ass is pretty much virgin and is very tight. I cant get any of the toys inside. Hurts too much. So I bought a med size plug and after bunch of lube "And work" finnally got it in and masturbated to an explosive gay orgasm. But... It got stuck and I couldn't get it out. I tried and tried, but it hurt soo bad when I pulled on it. I was so scared and started to panic and cry a little. I left it in as long as I could but it started hurting from just being in my ass. It hurt to leave in and to take out. I wished I had a boyfreind to help me. I even used Doc Johnsons numbing lube. Anyway, I put on my big girl panties, and while crying like a schoolgirl, yelled "Well you're gay now little slut so you better get used to it ******" and yanked it out, making my cock drip an unusual amount of precum when it popped out. I thought something might have torn, but it was just pain. I cried for a long time with pain and dissapointment. Maybe I just need a good ass ****. I'm not a quitter. I will gape. I promise you that. Any tips would be greatly appreciated. Any one else doing this? We could start a gape club and learn from eachother, while documenting the progress of our gape. Bye perverts. I love you.