New years eve dreaming about what could be
I am sitting here browsing a wide variety of porn on New years eve 21/22 and just thinking to myself how long do i need to continue my unsatisfied life living a lie where i can not be open with my wife.
Am i the only sad sack here or are there others thinking the same?
20 years of living the most boring vanilla lifestyle with a woman who changed over night once marriage happened.
A bit about us. She was married and a little older when we met. After rocking her world for 12 months she decided to leave her husband for a life more colorful. I mean Oral sex, Anal sex, Public sex, Sex with toys Strap ons dildos hand cuffs etc. All the things wet dreams are made of then 2 years later we get married and BOOM all my wildest dreams have come crashing down.
On our wedding night i set up the video camera, put on a sexy crotch less body suit and filmed her plowing my ass with a 7 inch strap on. I thought i have Won the fucking lottery.
Before we got married i nearly got her into a 3 some with my mate but he chickened out but i thought no worries the chance will happen again. How wrong could i have been.
I know people will say if you have a relationship with a married woman eventually she will cheat on you as well. How long do i have to wait for this to happen. I have even told her that i would be turned on if she did but still nothing.
The exciting sex that we use to have is long over 4 play is her saying come on over, I mean if i am good i might get a 2 minute blow job 3 times a year. To be honest that doesn't bother me but now i don't even feel like going down on her any more and that is one of my favorite things to do sexually. She just has a way of making me feel repulsed in the bedroom.
I never wanted to be unfaithful to my wife but now i feel i have no option if i wish to maintain my sanity. I would happily be chastised for months at a time just to create a little spark in our sex life but she won't even be open to playing this way.
Am i crazy to want a little bit more from life?
Am i the only sad sack here or are there others thinking the same?
20 years of living the most boring vanilla lifestyle with a woman who changed over night once marriage happened.
A bit about us. She was married and a little older when we met. After rocking her world for 12 months she decided to leave her husband for a life more colorful. I mean Oral sex, Anal sex, Public sex, Sex with toys Strap ons dildos hand cuffs etc. All the things wet dreams are made of then 2 years later we get married and BOOM all my wildest dreams have come crashing down.
On our wedding night i set up the video camera, put on a sexy crotch less body suit and filmed her plowing my ass with a 7 inch strap on. I thought i have Won the fucking lottery.
Before we got married i nearly got her into a 3 some with my mate but he chickened out but i thought no worries the chance will happen again. How wrong could i have been.
I know people will say if you have a relationship with a married woman eventually she will cheat on you as well. How long do i have to wait for this to happen. I have even told her that i would be turned on if she did but still nothing.
The exciting sex that we use to have is long over 4 play is her saying come on over, I mean if i am good i might get a 2 minute blow job 3 times a year. To be honest that doesn't bother me but now i don't even feel like going down on her any more and that is one of my favorite things to do sexually. She just has a way of making me feel repulsed in the bedroom.
I never wanted to be unfaithful to my wife but now i feel i have no option if i wish to maintain my sanity. I would happily be chastised for months at a time just to create a little spark in our sex life but she won't even be open to playing this way.
Am i crazy to want a little bit more from life?
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