Trying again...

So I've tried before and failed each time I've attempted long term chastity. The first time I failed was because I was using a cheap device. It had a metal ring with a soft rubber cage, and the first night I woke up in excruciating pain when I started getting hard in my sleep. It was too large and just not designed for long term use. I've since gotten a CB6000s, and I think I finally have the right combination of ring and spacer sizes to wear it long term. I've just finished the first 24 hours, and other than waking up a couple times to discomfort, it went alright and I made it thru. Although I have to admit, the first time I woke up I grabbed an ice pack out of the freezer and held it on my sissy bits for a couple minutes. I was close to chickening out again, but that soothed the swelling and saved this attempt. So now I've made it a whole day, and I can't remember the last time I went a full day without playing with my clitty or toying my asspussy. Or both, lol. Yes, I didn't touch anything below the waist yesterday, except for bathroom breaks. However I did have to stop myself a couple times as I was cleaning a bit too vigorously lol. As you can imagine I was super horny last night when I went to bed, so I put on an hour long hypno and played with my nipples while listening. I didn't fully cum, but I swear I did have a small orgasm :) I'm gonna try to avoid toys again today, and see how long I can go before I have to at least finger myself, if not full on dildo fuck myself into oblivion. I've already been able to squirt for awhile now (check out my vids), but it's usually more the consistency of pee than thick like cum. I wanna see if I can hold out long enough to be able to shoot a nice thick, white load of cum. Idk how long I plan to do this, but I'd love to make it all the way thru February. I'm attached and she has no idea, but I'm working on the road for about 6 weeks, so it's RaeAnne's time to shine. And since I'm going to all this trouble, it would be a shame if I didn't get some big, hard cock inside me while I'm locked like a proper submissive slut. At least one, lol. I'll post again tomorrow morning, either with an update or an admission of failure. I'm thinking the second night will be easier, at least I'm hoping so. As my clitty gets used to being bound up tight, my body should adapt and get used to it. I promise you this, tho, if I make it until next Sunday night, I'm getting fully dressed and making a new solo video. A week without touching my sissy clitty and I'll NEED 10" of black dildo to get me where I need to be. Wish me luck! :D