Ripped apart

I was looking for a dominant top man to rip me apart. I need to be careful for what i ask for. A guy contact me about my post i put up on a couple sites. He said he is a dominant man who likes submissive men. I told him what i was looking for. That i was horny and that i wanted to be thrown around and have my “ass ripped apart” . We met up after chatting and immediately he claimed ownership of me. He sensed my natural submissiveness. Even after 30 to 45 mins of being degraded and thrown around and my face slapped looking back i still had no idea what i was getting into. I dont know if i was euphoric or just trusting this stranger to not go to far or cross my limits. Looking back i know now he knew i was out of my league and he took advantage of it. he degraded and abused me for almost an hour then out came his beautiful cock 8 inch and pretty thick. I have had that size in my ass but never had my throat fuck by that large. Until that day. He fucked my throat until i was **************. I was a grown man on my knees ************** and i felt scared. That when i knew i was in to something that i did not expect or think about.
I could have stopped there but i didnt. I was i think afraid to disappoint him. I was then starting to think about what he was going to do to me next. I didn’t think the ass fuck could be worse than what i just went through. Again pretty naive.
I was lubed up full penetrated right away. No warning no care taken it hurt and i screamed. He immediately grabbed my throat while he penetrated me spit in my face and told me what he was gonna do. Rip my ass apart. The first thrust and few second hurt so much. I think my screams of pain just fed him. No one has ever fucked me so hard like that. I was scared to say no or stop. He had full physical control over me . I was thinking he would cum soon and stop. After a few minute I couldn’t feel the pain anymore just his body slamming into mine. I was be slapped and spit on so much I couldn’t feel the pain in my ass no more. Looking back it was like being in a fight. Then i was thrown onto my stomach and then the ass ripping started. I was anally destroyed period. His full body weight hammering away at me. This is when i knew he was here to rip me apart. I though all the wetness i felt was sweat and lube and our body fluids. I was being so abused in missionary i never ever looking at his cock. I dont know if he knew it was blood. He must have. It was in doggy when i saw the mess on the sheets. I was ripped apart. It went on for a little bit longer he flipped me over again on to my back blood was everywhere now smeared even down to my feet. It was all over his cock area. I think it was prob a hour of him fucking me i dont think i even said a word. He ask me if i had enough? I started to cry and said yes.
He said he had to cum it would just take a minute he was close. Crying i said ok. This is when I noticed he ha no condom on his cock smeared with my blood. All i could say was im sorry for the mess. He smiled. Then his demeanour changed. He penetrated me slow a softly went as deep as he could wrapped his arms around me i wrapped my legs and feet around him and my arms around him. We were fully embraced and he fucked me soft and gentle. It felt beautiful and what he just did to me. He came in me and we embraced for a few minutes. I cried while he held me. The emotions i went were overwhelming. He kissed me for the first time in a couple hours. Then he said lets get me cleaned up. What a complete mess. he was so caring cleaning my up. Cleaning me up in the shower and kissing me. He stripped the bed for me put new sheet on and said i should rest and relax for a few minutes. I layed down he kiss me and said i was a sweetheart. He got dressed a left. Alone now i just cried thinking about what i just went through. Now i started to feel my ass burning and throbbing. He owned me then destroyed me then loved me.
my ass was damaged and hurting now for couple weeks. It was an experience i am happy to have had but will not be asking to be ripped apart again.