First time no condoms

I remember that day i meet a guy 40 years old very cute guy we decide to meet each other i was ********** i go to his home very scary i lied to my parents to go out i come to his house he open the door was only with a boxer nothing else could see his got a big one through his underwear he give me drink then start to touch me everyone while he but his erection cock out then push my head till his dick and i start to suck him only thing i see is his big ball shaved after that he ask me to have a doggy positon i execute hid order my tiny cock was so hard at this moment i ask ''do you have condoms'' he says ''Yes i wear one don't worry shut up'' i was so afraid and put lub on my all and push his massive cock in my hole my eyes was white at this moment during 30 mn he destroyed my asshole and insult me at the same time he finished then my mom called me to go home so i took my bag wear my clothes and go fast at home , i took a shower i squat to wash my hole and see cum go out throught my hole i was like omg what is this ! and i undestand that he took it of the condoms while he fucked me so i texted him to ask him and he says ''yes i fill you what will you do now'' i say ''nothing i accept it '' i was so exited that he abused me since this day i never used condoms !