When I knew I liked older men

Mom's ex boyfriend used to sleep over and they were very serious he and I "Clicked" and so on and flirted then we started watching porn together when mom wasn't home and he asked if it was ok to masterbate I said Yes trying to hide how exited I was. Much bigger than my boyfriend also I still remember how amazed I was how much sperm there was and he just emptied it all openly. We started fucking like daily I raced home on my bike from school we had an hour window or so before mom got home if he took his truck directly from work we fucked like daily for maybe 2 weeks he was very rough and like diciplined me with sex (hard to explain). Called me a slut, bimbo, fuckdoll, everything. At first it made me nervous but then it became a HUGE turn on. He knew it made me cum faster saying stuff like I shouldnt spread my legs for mom's boyfriends and "What does that make you Anna?". Stuff like that.

Mom caught us and then it was over threathened with police he ran she freaked out they were engaged and everything. Had a boyfriend for a while now but miss older men I know they are better I can be in school and so on and all I can think about is sex with my male teachers it drives me insane thinking about older men FUCKING me not like boys who have sex with you my body just needs regular hard hard sex to clear my mind if I dont get it I know I become a bitch and argue when I shouldnt I just get so much built up tension from not having a lot of sex.