Does this make me a bad mother

just a quick post nothing too long lol.
my eldest son has just gone on his first lads holiday and im so jealous
so does it make me a bad mother to wish to be 30 years younger and want to go in his place with his friends ?
i know that as soon as we landed at the hotel it would be bar and pool ;) and then i would end up blind drunk and passed out in the room
which would then give them all a chance to use me over and over x
it wold give a different meaning to me saying im off to eat 5 guys tonight lol