Thinking but cannot talk or whatever
The past few weeks have been really weird and I haven't been able to put everything into actual words. So this is me, right here right now, actually trying some stuff out.
It's been all ups and downs lately.
On one hand, I've got some terrible health problems going on in my closest family. I've always been very positive and hopeful, especially with how confident the docs are. But it has be getting slowly and slowly on my nerves, since I tend to stress myself and not open my mouth...it just bubbles up inside of me. Thankfully things have been going better this past weekend or so...knocking on wood it all stays the same.
On the other hand, I've been getting closer and closer to my crush. And let me tell you something brother, it's a mutual thing.
If there was one problem in this cool story...well I'm a dumb helpless romantic and fell in love. The feeling is fully there for her sadly, she really liiiiikes me a ton, she thinks I'm gorgeous and that I'm the perfect woman. We've been talking every single day for hours and hours, haven't been able to see each others all that much, thanks to work and other life stuff.
So yeah I don't know where this is going, in my heart it goes to girlfriend stuff...ya know...in my head it goes nowhere and I'm getting heartbroken. I hope the heart rings true but we never know, people are weird, people are dumb, I've had my share of awful stuff when it comes to relationships and hope it'll never happen again.
Thanks for listening, or should I say reading this.
See ya on the flip side.
Ellen - out!
EDIT:
This is basically me not knowing how to handle myself nor the situation. As if I had never been with anybody before, definitely feeling like Madonna in her most famous song, Like A Virgin.
It's been all ups and downs lately.
On one hand, I've got some terrible health problems going on in my closest family. I've always been very positive and hopeful, especially with how confident the docs are. But it has be getting slowly and slowly on my nerves, since I tend to stress myself and not open my mouth...it just bubbles up inside of me. Thankfully things have been going better this past weekend or so...knocking on wood it all stays the same.
On the other hand, I've been getting closer and closer to my crush. And let me tell you something brother, it's a mutual thing.
If there was one problem in this cool story...well I'm a dumb helpless romantic and fell in love. The feeling is fully there for her sadly, she really liiiiikes me a ton, she thinks I'm gorgeous and that I'm the perfect woman. We've been talking every single day for hours and hours, haven't been able to see each others all that much, thanks to work and other life stuff.
So yeah I don't know where this is going, in my heart it goes to girlfriend stuff...ya know...in my head it goes nowhere and I'm getting heartbroken. I hope the heart rings true but we never know, people are weird, people are dumb, I've had my share of awful stuff when it comes to relationships and hope it'll never happen again.
Thanks for listening, or should I say reading this.
See ya on the flip side.
Ellen - out!
EDIT:
This is basically me not knowing how to handle myself nor the situation. As if I had never been with anybody before, definitely feeling like Madonna in her most famous song, Like A Virgin.
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