Interpersonal relationships

I started crossdressing at 6. I knew i was different than others. I had had weird feelings for male friends. I didnt understand them and ignored them. At 12 i went to a after school skating party with a friend. I skated with my crush.Made a fool of myself. Hisvaunt picked us up and we all stayed at his grandmothers that night. After everyone was asleep, the aunt m*****ed me. She was so hot. But why did she want sex with a **********? Trust in women was gone. Lately all the men i meet are users or ditchers. Better to not even bother.