Had another dream about cock

I've been watching sissy hypnos for a long time. I always wondered why I never dream of cock until one night a short while ago when I had my first dream of a man showing me his cock. At the time I was surprised, not thinking playing around with hypnosis vids would cause anything. I've always loved the idea of transition or transforming. Women turning into vampires probably were my first things to stroke to. Now that ive had my second dream I think something is taking hold. All I can remember is being near a beach and going to the public rest room. I knocked and no one answered. the knob turned and I walked in to find a very effeminate androgenous man standing there, looking into the mirror and stroking his rather small cock. I turned to walk out and he kicked the door shut and locked it. There was a blankness in his eyes, almost like he was in a trance. sandy blonde hair, hairless body. The room smelled of soft perfume. one hand reached up to the top of my head and while never making eye contact, pushed me to my knees. I didnt want to accept what I was doing until I felt his cock brush against my lips while he swung his/her hips back and forth. i looked up, now making eye contact. "suck" he/she said. Just then I woke up. my cock was so hard that I came in three strokes.

Why did I wake up before I could suck his cock? My maleness fighting back? I want to go back to that dream, need to go back. I need more training to make my resistance go away. All suggestions, help, videos and pics to get my mind to relax are welcome. thanks for reading!