Powerless to The Porn Creep (and I love it)

Years ago my wife and I took our vows of marriage. While on our honeymoon she immediately took charge of the relationship. To celebrate she allowed me to privately masturbate on the toilet. I gratefully settled and enjoyed myself. That night we slept together but I was denied to touch her. In public we appear to be a common low class old couple. We both work full time at low paying jobs. There is nothing special about us except that behind our window shades I am her domesticated bitch. She has tasked me with all the housewife duties. Dirty dishes, dirty panties, dirty shorts, dirty socks, dirty floors, dirty tub and dirty toilet. I keep them all clean. Fuck'in "A", we are really dirty too!

Sucking n fucking cock, cunt and asshole is unfulfilling for her. She doesn't enjoy sex and she doesn't desire me at all. While, being her housewife fulfills my relationship needs, sexually, I crave more. One day, I asked for permission to invite porn into our home and openly masturbate to it. Her answer was "Yes, yes of course you may. I prefer that you satisfy your dirty sexual urges alone".

The porn soon became extremely hardcore and increasingly homosexual. I wallow in the lust, just like a fat stupid pig wallows in a dirty mud hole. Whenever possible I am nude and openly masturbate while watching men suck n fuck each other. The dirtier it is, the more aroused I become. Fuck Me! I wish I could smell it, and taste it, and take it up my ass.

Occasionally she walks in and catches me performing ass to mouth with my stinky dirty dildo. Sometimes she stops and watches with me, but never for very long. At first she was shocked, but now, not so much and is slightly more supportive of my acting out. Ah, but still, she has zero interest in dirty sex with me. Fuck yea, it's my kind of suck n fuck but it repulses her.

She says my ability to be the kind of man she can respect has been ruined by "The Porn Creep".

The Porn Creep? Well, my obsession with hardcore pornography has allowed him to creep in and take control of me. I am now powerless against him and I submit completely to his demands for lust and shame . He now owns me, body and soul. I love him so much that I pray and worship homosexuality every day. The Porn Creep controls my joy. Sexual relations with my wife is forbidden and she harshly enforces it. I have no self esteem, so I have to settle for solitary masturbation.

Fuck, I have really let myself go too. I'm a fat ugly stink pig. No woman would ever want me. No woman will ever suck n fuck me. My belly is always in the way and my dirty little dick goes limp at the thought of vanilla sex between a man and a woman. I will never be worthy to suck and fuck my wife. I am not a man.

Now in my golden years, all I do is compulsively pull on my dirty little dick and fuck n suck myself with a dirty dildo. All while worshiping big, gay cock porn. Sometimes I dress like a woman which repulses her even more. The dirty little dick may not get fully erect but I still manage to drool and dribble jizz and piss all over myself.

Oh what a waste of time, yet I am fulfilled here. This is where I belong. She will always be celibate and we will remain together for as long as this sexless marriage suits her. The Porn Creep will forever own me and control my joy. I am a pathetic porn addict. I am a pussy who craves kinky sex with dirty old men.

That’s how it is behind our closed doors (and I love it).