If Only

I jerked my way through two marriages. My first wife would go livid when I jerked off. She considered it tantamount to cheating on her. Don't flatter yourself, I would think. She wasn't all that great of a fuck anyways. My second wife tolerated me jerking off, but she didn't encourage it. Fine with me. I wasn't asking permission in any case!

I am serious in my belief that constant jerking off to porn will turn most men gay. I have experienced it myself, and have spoken with too many men who have done the same. Makes no difference whether they are married or single. Often, married men will jerk themselves completely gay, and no longer even fuck their wives.

I wish I had known and embraced my internal compass pointing *gay* when I was a ************ boy trying desperately to hide my little hardon in the boy's locker room at school. I couldn't stop it from happening. Just seeing all the other boy's cocks flopping around (and all of them bigger than mine) made my little prick hard as granite. In retrospect, I wouldn't have tried to conceal my hardon. Instead, I would have let it speak for me, telling any other young boy hiding his homosexual urges in the closet they had a kindred spirit in me.

I trust it would have led to me ending up with another boy's cock in my mouth. And, pre*teen boys being what they are, he would certainly have told his friends about it, and I would suddenly have boys lined up to be sucked off by the new village fag. And don't even get me started if some of them came to me wearing their sister's or Mom's panties and tights or leggins! If only I had known then what I know now. *sigh* Lost opportunities.