Progression

Understandably being completely pussy free has had an effect on my libido. I am now thinking about cock most of the day and dreaming about it often also. I am finding it harder and harder to focus on anything other than when I can next fall into a porn rabbit hole or please daddy. I have also found changes occurring in that I no longer get hard at all during heavy porn sessions. These sessions are now deeply rooted in sissy trainers and amateur trans. I also enjoy cuckold where I can see a pussy used hard and for long durations by real men, in a way I have never been able to get close to. I just stroke and rub away between finger and thumb. While any normal man would be deeply concerned with this, I have found myself to be quite excited and proud. The idea of being limp, yet highly aroused strikes me as the correct way for a sissy slut to present herself. Small and cute clits look much better in panties! I have cum while limp and small often now. However I have also found that I do not need or even want to cum during these lengthy sessions (often 4-6hr long now). The only times I cum are during Skype sessions with my daddy, and that is upon the order from him. I then have to lie and allow him to watch my clit dribble cum into my panties. It can be weeks between these releases, in between being daily, lengthy play where I may leak but never orgasm. Even when I do orgasm on cam for daddy, it is never long before the cock thoughts return.