My Sissy Brain Takes Over

So, my sex life works like this: Wife climbs into bed, settles comfortably with a video on Her iPad. I wait until invited, then fold back the covers and worship Her feet. When I'm a very lucky sissy, She wears stockings for me. I vape. I worship. I dream.

I dream about Her getting royally fucked by a Masculine Man while I stand at hypnotized, submissive feminized attention beside the bed.
I dream about waking from a trance in a maid uniform in my own living room, and suddenly powerfully knowing what I must do.
I dream about looking at my Wife's encouraging smile and She and i kiss and suck a hard, twitching cock together.

Last night, for the first time, I heard that little feminized voice inside my head whisper, "She sold you to another sissy. You're dressed up, tied up, butt fucked, and..." before my soft, empty mind could say, "...mine for the weekend," I had an orgasm like a train derailment.

When it was all over, I heard myself muttering, "I need to go deeper!" I don't think I'm able to have a hetero orgasm anymore.