The struggle for me
Just here to try and cheer up today. I'm over life and want to just toss the towel in and say fuck it all . sick of fighting for a life full of sadness . I want a friend who could love me but I don't feel that its gonna happen anymore. Been fighting this my whole life ever since I was 4 at least as far back as i can remember. I have a lot wrong with me from becoming an alcoholic I ended up in the hospital I and curious. So now i have a bunch of things wrong with me because they were covered up by the drinking. Had to learn how to walk again I didn't have any support The first day back was an argument because he was drinking baby daddy. I've been a single mom since then I have been trying to do it on my own I don't have anybody there. There are people who will say they love me They didn't love me They used me took what I didn't have to give. It's not love I don't know if I believe in it anymore So I'm struggling. First love is in the hospital. In a c*** worried he's not going to make it and he is younger than me I'm only 38 And I've been trying to get him to stop drinking this whole time. because I was homeless for the last six months. Him and his wife let me stay there off and on. I'm not anymore But this doesn't help I'm just never going to believe in anything again. I hate hearing you can do it you will survive I want some who can just be there and feel my pain. Who just wants to be around and hold me caring Loyal truthful and Communicate.
Makes it hard to want to live.
Makes it hard to want to live.
2年前
