Touching cock for the first time

Just wondering if anyone else has any experiences like mine, so when I was younger a bunch of k**s in the neighborhood were hanging out at a friend's house and I don't remember how everything even started I just remembered what happened in detail to me , but there was a porn on and a bunch of k**s were in the back goofing around , some were stroking , some were even using the vacuum for a sucking device , I think there was lik 8 males there alla between maybe 10 and 16 , then one of the k**s older brothers came over and walked in and was like what the fuck are you all doing., He was mad at first or at least I think he was I remember someone said we're just goofing around no big deal , and he said something to the effect well I'm not doing any of this shit this is weird as fuck but then he said I'm not gonna touch anyone but if someone wants to help me out while I watch the porn ok , he sat down in a reclining chair in front of the TV and he unzipped his pants and took out the biggest cock ive ever seen to this day , he was probably 9 years older than me and I couldn't help but want to touch him feel his big cock in my hand , it was amazing to this day I don't think I've seen a cock like that even watching porn , I don't know if I was just so young that it seemed so big but I know nobody else had a cock like that , so I crawled over to him and knelt before him and grabbed his already stiff cock and started stroking him I had never touched another cock before he felt so warm, hard, the head was a perfect mushroom , I'm guessing he was around 9 inches and very thick , I stroked him with both hands and still he had a couple inches over that , sadly the mom ended up coming home early from work and we all scrambled to get clothes on and stop what we were doing , I always think of what might have happened if she didn't come home , I think about that day all the time as a grown man , wishing I had the chance to taste him, and maybe more , does this make me gay or bi ? He's the only cock I've ever wanted ,I'm attracted to women ,only been with women but damn how I wish I could touch him again ! Just wanna know if it really was that big and perfect or was it cause I was young ! He is the reason I'm fascinated with big cock !