Oh what's the point.....

I really don't know why I keep coming back here.

I really don't. Yes, I'm on my own so it's the only sexual release I get. Yes, there's a few really nice people I've met and I want to try to keep in touch with them. Yes, there's lots of great people out there who, if I'm lucky, I might end up getting to know. But what's the point?

When I cum I just feel empty, because that sperm should be going into someone special. There are fewer and fewer real, genuine people on here who actually reply, and more and more just on here to build up a following for their OF page so to them I'm at most a pay-pig and at worst a gullible simp who'll do anything and pay anything in hope of seeing them naked. Honestly I look down the page on the Dating section and I really can't honestly say I 100% KNOW anyone is genuine. I know I'm probably asking too much by hoping to meet a genuine, special person to really bond with. I'm not even saying I'm looking for true love (it would be nice but this is, after all, a porn site), it would be enough to make some good, close, genuine friends of any age (I'd be just as happy being a 'daddy' figure for a younger person as I would be meeting someone around my own age). But I just don't believe anymore.

I know you don't care and I'm just moaning in a vacuum. But it's either that or a bridge/overdose/car exhaust/etc etc..... so.....

But.....