How I Became A Sissy For BBC

This is part one of I became a sissy white crossdresser obsessed with black cock! If you want to hear part two comment and let me know!!

It stared when I was 20. I was dating a girl named Andrea who was very beautiful but also very dominant and could be mean. She was not shy to tell me what was on her mind about me.

At that time I had not had many sexual experiences and I hadn’t really thought about my ability to make a girl cum. One night Andrea and I were starting to make out and feel each other up. She took of my pants and looked down at me and said “wow, your not really filling out those boxers are you?”. I was embarrassed and she kind of apologizes for saying it but didn’t take it back. After that she started to make fun of the size of my cock more often.

She started to go shop with me and would get me to buy right jeans saying that at least that way she could feel something if she grabbed me. She also had me buy small sized bright colored underwear at stores because she said “at least in your panties you can see your cock”. I remember having to go up to a hot girl at Urban Outfitter once with a handful of small sized bright blue, yellow and red briefs. It was humiliating.

Then one week ahe she went home and visited a friend of hers who only dated black guys. She came back to town and told me they had talked and it sounded like her friend was having way better sex then she was with me. She went on to say that her friend had told her she always kept a magnum condom in her purse because “you never know”. Andrea then said to me, “I’d like to see you try to wear a magnum condom” and started laughing. I was embarrassed and didn’t know what to say so I said that I bet they weren’t as big as her friend said. She took that chance to humiliate me more. Apparently she had taken a magnum from her friend and put it in her purse because she took it out and told me to get hard then put it on. I did, and I only filled up a small amount of the condom, most of it was left hanging off the end of my cock. Andrea laughed really hard and said “see, you could never use that”.

All of this was starting to get into my head, and one night I found myself googling “big black cock porn”. I was shocked to see the size of the cocks I was looking at. I was also shocked to see how much the girls in the porns seemed to be enjoying themselves. I couldn’t help but think that I could never make Andrea feel like that. She usually just looked bored when I was inside her. I started to get addicted to watching white girls get fucked by black men. And then I started to really get obsessed with big booty white girls grtting fucked by big black cock. It seemed like they were so thick and sexy that only a cock that big could truly please them. I don’t know if this was real or in my head but I definitely convinced myself of it.

Big butts and black cock were all I could think about. Then one day when I was watching the porn I realized what I was actually mentally thinking about when I watched the porn. I wasn’t turned on as much by looking at the girl as I was by looking at the BBC and wondering what it felt like to get fucked like that. I was picturing myself as the girl. This was scary but also so arousing. I didn’t plan to experiment or anything, but I did start doing something that changed my life forever. I started getting obsessed with working out my butt and trying to get it as big as I could like the girls in the porn. I just wanted to be like them in some way even if I couldn’t fuck a black guy.

i was still dating Andrea all this time and she was still unsatisfied. She had moved out of state so I would visit every couple of weeks or so. In between visits I was working on my butt exercises. Then one time when I was visiting her I came out of the shower wearing the little underwear she always made me wear and I was walking across the room when she told me to stop. She told me that my butt looked bigger and told me to, “pull your panties down your butt halfway”. I did and she started to laugh. She asked me if I was doing butt exercises and I said yea. She asked why, still laughing, I had no excuse ready so I just made something up about a workout routine. She didn’t buy it. The next day when I was getting ready to travel back home she gave me a pair of her thong panties. She told me that the next time we video chatted she wanted me to wear them so she could see what my ass looked like in a thing. I took the panties but never thought she would follow through.

The he next time we Skyped she did though and I wore them for her for just a second. It was exhilarating and she was laughing. I was shocked how good I felt in the thong. She kept saying how she was surprised my ass looked so good in the thing and that my cock basically fit into her panties. That was the first night she ever officially used the word tiny to describe my cock. “Tiny cock, big butt” she said.

The next time time I saw her we started to have sex and I was thinking about how she called me tiny. I didn’t want her to think that of me so I tried to fuck her as deep as I could and when I was as far in as I could go she looked at me and said “deeper” with this grin on her face I will never forget. She was grinning because she knew I couldn’t go any deeper and it was so embarrassing. But it was also so hot to me. I came almost immediately and she noticed. “You like knowing you have a small cock don’t you?” She asked me. I didn’t really know why it was so hot to me, I didn’t k ow what to say. I asked her if I ever pleased her. She said no, but that she had this idea about a thing called cuckolding. I asked her what it was and she said it was when a guy let another guy fuck his girl. I said I didn’t think I would like that and she didn’t say anything else (I didn’t learn until later that she was already fucking a big black dude at her school).

A few few months went by with her making me try on panties and me failing to make her cum. She looked so bored during sex and once when I was on top of her I pulled my head out of the pillow to kiss her and saw that she was holding the tv remote changing channels. I stopped and told her fine ok, maybe if it makes you happy we can see about another guy fucking you. As soon as I said that she jumped out of bed and was super excited. I didn’t think she would go for it so quickly but she clearly had been wanting it for a while. She said she knew exactly where she wanted to go and what she wanted to do. She said she didn’t want to fuck someone else to start but that she wanted me to
watch her flirt and dance and stuff with another guy. I reluctantly agreed. She said she knew a place in town and we got in her car. When we got to the place I saw it was a club. We went inside and got drinks and she started looking around. She told me to stand against the wall and just watch her. The she walked up to this group of black guys and stared to dance right in front of one of them. Like I said she was hot, so of course the guy took the bait and started to grind with her. She was rubbing her ass all over him and just looking over at me with a smile on her face.

I was so turned on. That was when I realized something inside of me had been awoken that I couldn’t turn off. If you want to hear about how I became a total sissy and became the girl I am now leave love and I will write part 2!!
 
Part 2

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So there I was watching my girl rub her ass all over this guy. I watched him run his hands up and down her legs and grab her ass. She was watching me, smiling. She danced with him and let him buy her a drink. They talked at the bar. She laughed and I just watched. She was being so flirty, she kept touching his big arms and he kept on putting his hand on her ass and she didn’t stop him even though I was her boyfriend. As they talked I noticed she was looking at me less and at him more. It was like she was kind of forgetting I was there. Then they started to make out right in front of me. I couldn’t believe I was watching my girlfriend cheat. I was embarrassed but also turned on. I watched her run her hand over his crotch. Then they stopped. She leaned in and said something to him. Then they both looked at me and she laughed. He looked at me and laughed too. I was humiliated again by her. After that she came over to me and told me she wasn’t going to fuck him tonight, but that she wanted to. She told me she had felt his cock and that she had asked him how big it was. She said he said 9 inches. She said we were leaving but we had to make a stop first.

On the the way home we stopped at a CVS she went inside and bought a ruler. We went home and as soon as we got inside she told me to strip and get hard. I was still kind of in a daze. I was confused why I thought this was hot, why I wasn’t more mad but I was also humiliated and knew that she didn’t respect me. I did what she said anyway. Once I got hard she took out the ruler and measured me. I will never forget what she said, “yep, not even quite 4 inches hard, he’s more than double your size. I am so tired of your tiny cock”. I felt like I was going to explode, I was so turned on and so mad and so confused all at once. We never had sex again after that night. In fact, I never had sex with a woman again after that night. Andrea has made it clear that I wasn’t enough man. I didn’t know what to do.

I stopped visiting her after a while. I found on her gchat that she had been fucking this black guy Shawn for like 6 months and had been telling her friends about what a small cock I had. She was saying I wore her panties and she said I was just a sissy white boy. Reading that part really turned me on so I googled sissy white boy and started to fall down a rabbit hole that changed me forever. I found so many images of smooth submissive white boys dressed in girls clothing worshipping black dick. Every new image made me so hard. I finally accepted what I was. I was a sissy, Andrea had known it all along and now I did to. I was a sissy and I was gonna be a good one I decided.

I bought a big black dildo based on Mr Marcus’s cock. I played with it everyday, learning how to take it and how to stretch out my little white pussy. I shaved my whole body. I started to buy sexy clothes that showed off my big butt that I was still working on. Everyday I felt like my butt was getting bigger and my cock was getting smaller. I was getting more and more ready to finally meet a man in real life. To finally go out as a sissy. I practiced waking in heels, makeup, tried on different wigs, changed my voice, everything to be as sissy as I could. And I loved it. All I did was watch interracial porn and look at sissy images. I lived alone at this point so I started to put up pictures on my room. Pictures of big black cocks. Pictures of sissy white boys. My whole life became thinking about BBC. It was everywhere in my house.

As I became more and more of a sissy and my mind and body transformed I became more ready to go to a gay bar and see if people thought I was hot or not. See if I could maybe flirt with a big black man like Andrea had. Then, one day as I was trying to work up the courage, I was sitting and looking at the pictures on my wall. Panties were all over my room, booty shorts, mini dresses and hi heels all over. My big black dildo was sitting next to my bed. Then there was a knock at my door.

i opened it and it was Andrea. I hadn’t seen her in a year. I didn’t know what to do. She didn’t know how far I had gone, I hadn’t talked to her in so long but before I could say anything she pushed past me. She went to my living room (which was normal) and sat on the couch. She asked me to sit with her and she told me she missed me and wanted me back. All I could think about were the BBC posters, the big black dildo, the thongs, the heels all just in the next room. She was talking and then she stopped. She started to kiss me and took off my shirt, she noticed my shaved chest but must not have thought it was too weird because she kept going. I didn’t know what to do because I knew when she saw my legs were shaved she would know something had changed. What could I do though? I let her take off the jeans I was wearing and as soon as she did she stopped. She looked at my smooth legs leading up to the little red booty shorts I was wearing (I didn’t own men’s undies anymore, and I had gotten so used to woman panties I forgot I was wearing them). She climbed off me without saying anything. She was quiet for a while and I didn’t say anything. Then she said “wow you really are a sissy, it wasn’t just me, it’s who you are”. Then, almost like she knew, she went to my bedroom and turned on the light.

There was everything. The thongs, the heels, the bbc posters, the dildo, the poppers. Everything I used to be the sissy that I was. She just nodded and said “I should have known you’d be obsessed with black guys”. Then she got mean and told me that this was all I was good for, that my small dick could never please her or anybody, that it was good I was learning to be a girl because I was more girl than guy anyway. She told me she had been fucking another black guy and that he made her squirt. She said that if I fucked her after him she wouldn’t even be able to feel me. I felt sick and horny. I finally got her to leave but it just cemented for me even further that I was doing the right thing. My place was with my big white butt up in the air for bbc, not trying and failing to please a woman. I swore to myself that I would go out to a gay bar that weekend.

And i did. And a lot more happened than I expected. If you want to know leave comments!!
 
Part 3

So after I had been exposed to Andrea as a sissy I knew I had to just give in to my urges and finally try going out in public as a girl. It was made even more clear when Andrea started to text me pictures. She was sending pictures of her text conversations with her friends where she was telling them what a small dick I had and was showing them
this picture she took of me naked. At the time she had told me to pose naked for her and cover my dick with a sticky note. At the time I thought she wanted it to look at to get horny, but it was clear it was so she could have proof of how small my cock was. You couldn’t even see it behind the sticky note! Her friends were laughing at me. Then came the pictures of her sucking BBC. She told me she knew I wanted to be her, and I knew it too! That Friday it was finally time!

i found a gay bar near my house that looked cool and played mainly hip hop music. I had been practicing twerking and I was good at it and I thought it would be hott to twerk in public. I got dressed up in one of my favorite outfits. I have a pic of me in the outfit in my profile. I had a little orange shirt with leopard print short shorts that showed off my big booty! I wore pink heels and did my make up based on a YouTube video I watched for how to look as feminine as possible. It took a few tries, but I finally got it to where I thought I looked like a sexy girl and my butt looked great in the little shorts with just a pink thong underneath. Little did I know I wouldn’t be wearing those shorts for long!

I put on my 5 inch pink heels and took one last look in the mirror. I was so nervous my heart was beating so fast! I had never shown anybody what a real sissy I was and now I was gonna show a whole bar of people. I poured a shot of vodka to calm my nerves and then headed to the bar. When I got there I parked and suddenly I was so scared I couldn’t move. I was sitting there dressed like a sissy slut, ready to go dance but I just couldn’t make myself move. I sat there for 30 minutes trying to make myself get out of the car. I was looking at BBC porn on my phone trying to work up courage when I heard a tap on my window. I looked up, surprised and saw a sexy black guy standing outside my car. I rolled down the window and he started to talk to me. He asked me what I was doing, my name, if it was my first time and I told him yea and I was nervous. He told me he would help me and that it would be ok that I looked great and that his friends inside would love to see how I looked. He made me feel so good and confident I finally decided ok I can go inside. So I got out and held his hand and we walked in the bar together.

When we got inside it was pretty dark, but there was some good rap playing and I felt myself get excited a little, but still scared. Greg, the guy holding my hand, led me into the bar and over to his friends. There were 3 other guys and they were all sitting at the bar having drinks. One was the owner and he was really nice. The bar was actually pretty empty, there were a couple other groups sitting at some tables, maybe 12 people in there in total. I was happy because it wasn’t overwhelming. Greg introduced me to his friends and told them it was my first time out at a bar. They said I looked great and asked if I wanted to drink with them and of course I did so we did a shot and I got a cranberry vodka. After a shot and a drink I was feeling pretty loose. The guys were talking about the music and how nobody was dancing. I was just drinking and enjoying being in public. It got to be like 1am and the other people in the bar left so that it was just me Greg, his friend Corey, his friend Kyle and the owner Dee. I was thinking how hot they looked and Greg had his big hand on my waist holding me pretty tight to him. I really felt like I was his girl. I was so turned on that that I finally came out of my shell a little, I told the guys that I could dance pretty good and they told me to go to the stage and prove it. I looked at Greg and he nodded and moved his hand from his waist to my booty. He grabbed it and told me to go. So I did.

i got up on stage and started to shake my ass to the music. I had been practicing for months so I really knew what I was doing. I could make my right cheek bounce then my left cheek bounce then my right cheek bounce ten my left cheek bounce. I could make my whole ass jiggle. I could twerk down to the floor and then bend over with my legs straight and my ass facing the guys with my upper body still facing down. I was feeling the music and feeling so free that I closed my eyes and just danced and it felt so good to let myself be free. I was so into it I didn’t notice Greg walk up on the stage until I felt his hand on my booty. My little shorts I was wearing had a zipper on the butt that you unzipped so you can take them off. Before I knew what was happening, I was also pretty drunk by now, Greg was unzipping he zipper. I felt him pulling it down and part of me was scared about what he was doing but I was so turned on that I just stood on my toes and shook my thighs so that my phatty jiggled for him. He unzipped my shorts and pulled them slowly over my booty and down my legs to my ankles. I stepped out of the shorts and Greg tossed them off the stage.

So there i was just dancing in a little pink thong showing off my big fat booty for Greg and his hot friends. Greg slapped my ass and I let out a little squeal. He started to rub it and I bent over. It was like my body knew exactly how to react to his hands. It was like I was born to be a submissive white girl. I didn’t have to think or pretend, all I had to do was let myself do what I was born to do. Before long I felt another pair of hands on my legs. I opened my eyes and Greg’s friend Corey had joined him on the stage and was rubbing my legs. Suddenly I thought of Andrea and the time she had flirted with the black guy in front of me at the bar. She had rubbed his cock. I wanted to do that. I reached back and ran my hands over their jeans. They were both rock hard and they were big. Like really big. I knew what was gonna happen soon at that point. Two sexy black guys with big dicks were stripping me down on stage in an empty bar. I watched as Dee, the owner, walked out from behind the bar and locked the door to the bar. The bar was closed, but I was open for business!

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