Life is crazy

Been a dominant male all my life, mostly women, but always open. Nowi can't stop the life long urge to dress and be more feminine in appearance and how I present. Thankfully wife has remained supportive during this time. So I am not attracted to men, I want them to be to me. Don't veiw a males naked body as something sexual, however, I so want to suck ock again, my ass taken, so.eone has to understand these feelings