The Dawning - Realizing My Place

I created my account with xhamster nearly 6 years ago. Almost from the beginning men and women both wanted to domme me and control me. It was all new to me so I played along with one lady here. I had never experienced this situation in real life. And then there were guys who tried to do the same. Pretty soon I just moved away from this type of conversations and continued chatting with people here. Then about a year later I became friends with Tina. We chatted and spared experiences and she shared a lot of things with me pertaining to female dominance. Later in our friendship Tina went through some medical problems. Tina’s close friend Renee and I began chatting about how Tina was doing. Renee was very upset about Tina’s illness and she feared for the worse. I try to comfort her and reassure her that things would be ok. We became very close and we chatted almost every day. I soon realized that we had more that a friendship. I was lucky enough to be invited to the big house on occasion and our bond grew stronger each time.

I was invited to the Labor Day party at Fantasyland (see post) and really had a good time. The crew was there and I also met Pam and Ron for the first time.

I returned home from the Labor Day weekend party at Fantasyland and I missed Renee more every day of my life. I stayed in touch with her and the others but it wasn’t the same as before. I enjoyed talking to the others but there was always something more enjoyable when I talked to Renee. It made me happy when we talked and I felt like she enjoyed chatting also. It just seemed like we were meant to be. I realized that my day wasn’t complete without her. If for some reason we didn’t chat I had an empty feeling inside. As time went on I soon realized I couldn’t live without her and that I wanted to submit to her and have her as my Mistress. The day I told her that was the happiest day of my life. Renee was also very happy. I have never regretted submitting to her and I never will. I’m where I’m meant to be now.