To a future Mistress

Mistress, thank you for taking the time to write the above even though your attention is wasted on a submissive pussyfree beta male. I've been pussyfree, reluctantly for a long time now. I never was very good as the penetrative partner and I think now I would not be able to get hard, if I did I would cum right away. I'm sad to think I may never have pussy in my life again but I think that is very likely. You see, I'm not man enough to fuck, I can't get hard for pussy. I groom myself femme, wear women's underwear and jerk my little dick off to real men with real cocks, real pussy fucking cocks turn me on, it's as close to pussy as I can get. Sometimes I get to dress in women's underwear and submit to a real man's sexual needs, I find the humiliation to be fulfilling ! Strange but true. I want women to know this. I would love to be "made" to perform oral sex on a real man in front of a woman. To be fucked on my back with legs wide by a real man in front of a woman would be the ultimate expression of how worthless I am as a masculine male that knows how to please a woman. I don't even like sucking cock very much, it's a tough job, a lot of work, my jaw aches, I don't like the taste of cum but I do it every chance I get and I want you to know it. I do it because I have nothing else to offer sexually. The best I can do is keep my self clean and smooth and dressed to excite a real men and make myself available as often as I can. This is something I can do and have been doing for about 7 years now. So a little about me anyway, thanks for reading.