Improving my anal skills - 2023 edition
Written 2023/11/14
I'm taking a BIG leap. I've always said (you can even see it in my older posts here) and thought that being a bottom is something I'd never be open to doing. Mainly because I'm so so tight down there in my butt that I'm scared something will get damaged. ? But the more I think about it, given my adoration of big thick trans cock, the less likely it seems that I would be with a girl who did not want to enjoy *all* of me. I mean, can I blame hung trans women for wanting to top their partners to show their love? Given the gorgeous cocks they're blessed with, they should absolutely use them to give their partner pleasure and love. I need to let go of my hangups so I can give my trans partner what is their right to every part of my body.
So, in short, I've basically decided to let go of this artificial self-imposed limitation that has been holding me back for so many years. I'm going to work on opening up my flower (that's what I'm lovingly calling my tight virgin butthole) for my future trans love to enjoy.
How am I preparing?
I bought two toys:
- the Snug Plug 2 weighted butt plug
- the Adam P-spot rotating massager
I actually used the Aneros Helix Syn many years ago and that's how I know for a fact from experience just how tight I am down there. My plan to open up my flower is to first get used again to having something in my butt, and to loosen it up a bit and get it used to the sensation of being filled up. I'm going to start with the Snug Plug and work up to wearing it 4 hours a day. I also will be wearing it outside on my walks because I'm a naughty boy.
And then I'm going to start using the Adam's P-spot massager to wake up the insides of my butt and get it to start to hunger for real cock. I never had much luck with the Aneros in terms of getting a prostate orgasm. And actually, if I'm being completely honest with myself and with you, I've always secretly believed that only a real cock would be able to give me that experience because only someone intimately familiar with my body, who is lovingly feeling every nook and crease inside my butt, looking into my eyes as they kiss me, watching me squirm in pleasure and move and respond as they thrust into me, can accurately react and change their position in real-time to hit my prostate in the way it needs to explode with pleasure. And this is why it's become so clear to me after all this reflection how I've been working against myself and my innermost desires for so so long. I have always wanted to be entered by the trans woman I love. I have always wanted to give her every last part of me to enjoy. I have always wanted to hold nothing back from any partner I've had. I have always wanted to feel warm cum being dumped into my insides by a body shuddering in ecstasy as it pumps into my ass, hands gripping my waist tightly, teeth biting my ears, thighs slamming lustfully into my ass cheeks. I have always wanted to drift off to warm, lovely dreams in her arms as she slowly withdraws her beautiful spent cock covered with her cum commingled with my prostate juices after she used my ass up completely, the bulbous head of her long, thick cock plopping audibly out of my tight flower teasing me and making me shudder in pleasure one last time.
Why, just why have I denied this for so long? I'm glad I've finally accepted what I really want deep down. What I've always wanted so badly. I'm so happy and excited that I've started to move towards manifesting all of this in my life. Thank you, universe. ♥️♥️
I'm taking a BIG leap. I've always said (you can even see it in my older posts here) and thought that being a bottom is something I'd never be open to doing. Mainly because I'm so so tight down there in my butt that I'm scared something will get damaged. ? But the more I think about it, given my adoration of big thick trans cock, the less likely it seems that I would be with a girl who did not want to enjoy *all* of me. I mean, can I blame hung trans women for wanting to top their partners to show their love? Given the gorgeous cocks they're blessed with, they should absolutely use them to give their partner pleasure and love. I need to let go of my hangups so I can give my trans partner what is their right to every part of my body.
So, in short, I've basically decided to let go of this artificial self-imposed limitation that has been holding me back for so many years. I'm going to work on opening up my flower (that's what I'm lovingly calling my tight virgin butthole) for my future trans love to enjoy.
How am I preparing?
I bought two toys:
- the Snug Plug 2 weighted butt plug
- the Adam P-spot rotating massager
I actually used the Aneros Helix Syn many years ago and that's how I know for a fact from experience just how tight I am down there. My plan to open up my flower is to first get used again to having something in my butt, and to loosen it up a bit and get it used to the sensation of being filled up. I'm going to start with the Snug Plug and work up to wearing it 4 hours a day. I also will be wearing it outside on my walks because I'm a naughty boy.
And then I'm going to start using the Adam's P-spot massager to wake up the insides of my butt and get it to start to hunger for real cock. I never had much luck with the Aneros in terms of getting a prostate orgasm. And actually, if I'm being completely honest with myself and with you, I've always secretly believed that only a real cock would be able to give me that experience because only someone intimately familiar with my body, who is lovingly feeling every nook and crease inside my butt, looking into my eyes as they kiss me, watching me squirm in pleasure and move and respond as they thrust into me, can accurately react and change their position in real-time to hit my prostate in the way it needs to explode with pleasure. And this is why it's become so clear to me after all this reflection how I've been working against myself and my innermost desires for so so long. I have always wanted to be entered by the trans woman I love. I have always wanted to give her every last part of me to enjoy. I have always wanted to hold nothing back from any partner I've had. I have always wanted to feel warm cum being dumped into my insides by a body shuddering in ecstasy as it pumps into my ass, hands gripping my waist tightly, teeth biting my ears, thighs slamming lustfully into my ass cheeks. I have always wanted to drift off to warm, lovely dreams in her arms as she slowly withdraws her beautiful spent cock covered with her cum commingled with my prostate juices after she used my ass up completely, the bulbous head of her long, thick cock plopping audibly out of my tight flower teasing me and making me shudder in pleasure one last time.
Why, just why have I denied this for so long? I'm glad I've finally accepted what I really want deep down. What I've always wanted so badly. I'm so happy and excited that I've started to move towards manifesting all of this in my life. Thank you, universe. ♥️♥️
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