Watching Interracial Porn Is Not Enough......

For a long time now I've been either watching IR porn or Gay porn. I feel that is the only porn I'm aloud to watch. IR to show me that only Black Men deserve to fuck pussy and Gay porn to show me that if I do want to fuck or get fucked, that with other men is my only choice. But after watching both for so long, I started to feel like I'm not even deserving of watching them either. But, if I can't jerk to either of them, what really is there left to jerk to? So I decided that the best thing to do is while I'm jerking, that I need to punish myself at the same time. Because lets face it, it's an honor to watch BBC fucking white pussy. And that I should show my appreciation but not only cumming to them fucking, but at the same time punish myself as well. And one way I can think of punishing myself is by wearing nipple clips while gooning to IR porn. But not just any nipple clips like you can buy online. Ones that really pinch down and hurt. And I found that the best ones for the job are the ones you can buy to put on your refrigerator. These clamp down hard and are painful at first, but after awhile I got use to them. And now I find that the only way I can cum is if I have them on while jerking to IR. Anyone else have some ideas on a form of punishment?