Growing up as a unsure gay boy

My first sexual experience was with a man that would eventually become my stepdad. I would visit and stay over at his home before I turned a teen. Cool guy with motorcycles and dune buggy’s. I would sleep in his bed (both of us nude) and after we were close he slid behind me and spooned me asking me questions etc, like was I attracted to girls and so on. He started teaching me how to French kiss. I was turned on by this, but unsure of myself. I had already seen his long uncut cock. One night he slid his cock between my legs and shot his load on the back of my balls. I remember him getting up and walking toward the bed and cum was dripping from his cock. This began to be a regular thing each weekend. He never penetrated my young boy hole. He would show me gay slideshows of gay men with huge cocks. He told me of other boys he had taught to kiss and etc. One night he had another boy, a senior in high school and he had us make love in front of him, instructing me what and how to take his cock. I loved it as it was my first time. This now became the thing that even older men would come breed me on the weekends. He just liked watching and teaching me how to love on cocks. We never had sex together other than him shooting his hot loads between my legs and reaching around and stoking my cock. I know he wanted too but he was to marry my mom so he didn’t do more. Just for reference porn stud Lagrand Wolf looks a lot like my stepdad. So that why I like so many of his movies.