Today
Looking back at my life I regret not accepting my true feelings and trying to comply to what is "normal". My experience all those years ago with the examination should have made me realise that at best I was a submissive bi but more likely gay.
So many of my experiences that I look back on with affection are when I was submissive with a superior guy. My early experience in the toilets was with older men who knew what they wanted.
I have spent so much time trying to secretly experience submissive gay experiences. I adore cocks worshiping them regardless of their size. Whenever I masturbate its looking at Gay porn often sissy which I believe I am.
I have tried so many times to pursuade my wife to take a lover, make me a cuck but failed miserably.
She had a relationship once many years ago with a male colleague it lasted about 18 months, unfortunately when I found out she ended it!
Despite me saying it was ok I was happy for her, she couldn't accept it excited me.
I just wish I could openly enjoy submitting to a real man regularly, enjoy making him happy and enjoy his body.
I adore sucking a sexy cock swallowing his seed and equally love to feel a cock in my sissy pussy. I have yet to enjoy bareback but yearn to.
Update yesterday I had an amazing Kashmiri massage for the 3rd time but this time the intimacy was more and I persuaded the masseur to enter me bareback . It was awesome unfortunately he didn't cum inside me, maybe next time!
So many of my experiences that I look back on with affection are when I was submissive with a superior guy. My early experience in the toilets was with older men who knew what they wanted.
I have spent so much time trying to secretly experience submissive gay experiences. I adore cocks worshiping them regardless of their size. Whenever I masturbate its looking at Gay porn often sissy which I believe I am.
I have tried so many times to pursuade my wife to take a lover, make me a cuck but failed miserably.
She had a relationship once many years ago with a male colleague it lasted about 18 months, unfortunately when I found out she ended it!
Despite me saying it was ok I was happy for her, she couldn't accept it excited me.
I just wish I could openly enjoy submitting to a real man regularly, enjoy making him happy and enjoy his body.
I adore sucking a sexy cock swallowing his seed and equally love to feel a cock in my sissy pussy. I have yet to enjoy bareback but yearn to.
Update yesterday I had an amazing Kashmiri massage for the 3rd time but this time the intimacy was more and I persuaded the masseur to enter me bareback . It was awesome unfortunately he didn't cum inside me, maybe next time!
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