Failing Mistress Brooks

Being Mistress Brooks slave has been a wonderful experience. But being truly obedient to her has regrettably been a bit of a challenge. And as I write down my thoughts on where I struggle, where I am not a good submissive and where I am failing her, I start to see that it is simple. I have yet to be programmed. Programmed to just automatically complete two simple tasks. The first is so simple that it is embarrassing. All I need to do is go to xhamster and say good night before I go to bed. On one or two previous occassions and again last night, I simply fell asleep watching television. I lacked the awareness to make my Mistress a priority. A simple good night is a symbol of respect. Falling asleep only to wake at 6am without completing my requirements is clearly a lack of self discipline. I even set an alarm as a reminder.....and then hard slept right through it. The issue is on I need to work on. And one I need to be held accountable for.

Then starting this past Friday night, I regrettably made myself unavailable to my owner, Mistress Brooks and also to my superiors. I selfishly did what I wanted Friday night and was too drunk and tired to message her to even let her know my whereabouts. I have a few daily tasks that I failed to complete as well. On Saturday, I felt sick and hung over all day. On Sunday, family activities didn't allow for me to message again during the day. And I was so selfishly tired that I fell asleep. As Mistress Brooks dirty submissive slut, she deserves so much better. I failed her in everyway. Which leads to my second failure, which is timely communicating changes in plans or unexpected events that preclude me from doing what I previously told her.

As I reflect, it is not the ingactions of not being available or the actual delay in completing the task itself. The underlying issue is the respect that should be shown is lacking. The respect for Mistress Brooks to immedietly let her know something changed should be a bare minimum. That is where the true failure lies. Plans will change, especially when you have a family and others to be responsible for yourself. But if I am to learn and improve being the submissive slave I want to be for Mistress Brooks and my superiors as well, then I must look myself in the mirror and make respect a priority.

I am sorry for the fact that I still have alot to learn and alot to work on. But I promise that I will work on respecting Mistress Brooks and my superiors time more appropriately and will work to engrain certain simple tasks into my programmed brain. I do want to always continue to learn and be honest with my friends, community and superiors. This is where I am currently, a flawed but committed submissive. I am sorry and I will improve ?

I am being punished properly for the transgressions of this weekend. I thank all those that provided feedback to Mistress Brooks. She is incorporating all of your ideas into my punishment. So in a way, you are also all punishing me. Mistress Brooks deserves better but so do you too. And for that, I apologize most humbly to everyone. Thank you Mistress Brooks for allowing me this opportunity to express my shortcomings.