Secret bi desires

My wife neglects me so bad, and it sometimes seems hopeless to find a horny "older" woman who is looking for a man like me. I find myself thinking of the millions of other men who are in situations just like mine - sexless marriages. I haven't ever touched another man sexually, but I think with the right man I would really enjoy it. I think about having his cock in my mouth, sucking until he ejaculates. Of him doing that to me. Maybe even trying anal with each other. I would need someone with some patience and willingness to explore slowly...and it would need to be someone local, no more than a few miles away at most, to make it very easy to meet