My first (and only) boyfriend (3)
<who the fuck was i?? i spent my whole life being assertive, punching way above my weight, getting girls i had NO BUSINESS with> within 5 minutes this guy tore me down to my panties, and had me waiting for his next command. i was so excited i couldnt speak. he said "give me your phone" which i did without hesitating..he programmed his number into it, gave it back and said. "call me after work tonight" and i said "ok". thats a nearly verbatim account of our conversation on the sidewalk. I was so tongue tied.
i still had to go to work on weak knees. i was shaking all day, but holy fuck was i excited.....i thought about deleting his number, so i could concentrate that day but there was NO WAY i was going to delete it. ive never been more excited in my life. the work day flew by, i couldnt recall one conversation i had, or one task i did at work that day... i left work, thought about driving home. and just pretending none of it happened. i was so scared. i was scared of what might happen if i called him.
i called him, of course. i had to accept that deep down i wanted to suck his cock more than anything ive ever wanted in my life. to this day i dont know why....i just wanted HIM. yes his looks were 9 /10 but id known plenty of good looking guys. i never thought about sucking their dick. it had to be the interracial porn i was watching, IR porn was the only porn i watched and now i was mentally preparing to be alone with a very attractive black man who was DEFINITELY my type.
so i called ...he answered and said "hey X, i knew youd call..." "you thought about me all day didnt you?" <omg he knows im a hopeless fucking whore!> ...i said something like "yes, i enjoyed our conversation today" or something lame like that. he just chuckled.
i still had to go to work on weak knees. i was shaking all day, but holy fuck was i excited.....i thought about deleting his number, so i could concentrate that day but there was NO WAY i was going to delete it. ive never been more excited in my life. the work day flew by, i couldnt recall one conversation i had, or one task i did at work that day... i left work, thought about driving home. and just pretending none of it happened. i was so scared. i was scared of what might happen if i called him.
i called him, of course. i had to accept that deep down i wanted to suck his cock more than anything ive ever wanted in my life. to this day i dont know why....i just wanted HIM. yes his looks were 9 /10 but id known plenty of good looking guys. i never thought about sucking their dick. it had to be the interracial porn i was watching, IR porn was the only porn i watched and now i was mentally preparing to be alone with a very attractive black man who was DEFINITELY my type.
so i called ...he answered and said "hey X, i knew youd call..." "you thought about me all day didnt you?" <omg he knows im a hopeless fucking whore!> ...i said something like "yes, i enjoyed our conversation today" or something lame like that. he just chuckled.
4ヶ月前
