Hook up anticipation

At home Horney and getting on line looking at double list or sniffles. Answering one’s post looking for a blow job. The anticipation that they are going to respond. Getting them to provide an address is exciting and stressful. They’re given their address and expected to arrive within a certain amount of time is exciting. Getting in your car dressed in a way that your going to be expected to be out of as soon as you get in there door. Driving thinking about what you’re about to do. The thrill of walking into a complete strangers house expecting to strip naked him a complete stranger. Knowing that you’ve already said you’re going there to put that man’s cock in your mouth. Is he going to enjoy me sucking his cock am I going to get him harder sooner than later ? Is he going to be verbal and enjoyable or is he going to not say a word. Is he going to be a nightmare ? I’m I going to end up a missing person. Am I putting myself in danger with this man I don’t know. Does the understanding that I’m just going to suck his cock and swallow his cum turn into being I being held against my will and he fucks me when I don’t want to be fucked. Is he going to be the man that welcomes me at the door with a wonderful smile. Welcoming me in and kindly and pointing to where he wants me. Is he going to have me feel comfortable. Am I going to finish sucking his cock and cum and leave or invite me to stay longer for a possible round 2. Arriving and the thrill is alive and real. The walk to the door has my heart pumping like crazy because I know I’m about to open myself as a cock sucking cum eating man and know it’s to late to get away.