I'm a breeder...
Who has never bred anyone...
I genuinely love breeding, pregnancy, bringing new life into the world, and everything associated with it more than ANYTHING...
But at what cost...
It genuinely has ruined me and runnied my one last chance at happiness for the last time...
I can't take being miserable for it causing me to be, too damn horny, to the point of warding off gals I do genuinely like because of it.
I'm tired of being misunderstood as a sex fiend, when I mention I still have my "v-card", because I only really want to give it to one who'll carry my offspring 1st.
I'm tired of being shunned when ever I mention my destitute living conditions and funds, or that I'm autistic among other things...
I'm tired of having an overactive sex drive and no way of dealing with it...
I'm tired of all this really... but I've gone on too long to quit now and I'm "too hard wired" to do anything about it, so it's time to face the music and realize...
I'm a breeder... who will probably never breed.
Honestly I should just "get things over with", "hire" someone to take my v-card for me, then leave this site for good as clearly "honest , open, and genuine" guys like me aren't "wanted" here anymore... I had my chances and blew them to smithereens and at the rate things are going I'd best just give up and focus on living the sad existence I do till I no longer can...
I'll probably leave this page up as a "momento of my hopes and dreams", and will give my contacts to the few that do want to chat with me otherwise... I'm still thinking about it but honestly the writing is on the wall for this site anyways so might as well go "while it's still around."
Anyway, I'm sorry for those I bothered or offended in my zeal to breed in the past/present till now... I'm just "too damn honest" for my own good and I "have no filter".
If I do stay I'll just wait for those who have interest to message me 1st as I clearly can't be trusted to do so.
It's a damn shame a guy like me who's biggest dream is to breed with those who will let him, and especially marry one who'd love me while doing so for the last 15 of my 31 years of life on this site has been throughly broken emotionally by gals here, while any gal willing to do the same can easily do so in less than 15 min of joining...
I'll give myself till December 26th to decided whether I leave of stay.
If I stay I'll "double down on breeding" and give up on "saving for the one I love" as clearly that hasn't gone well once so fuck it, I'm done and the consequences be damned, I'll figure something out afterwards if I do knock them up dispite me not really wanting to be woth them. I may be a "jackass" but I won't abandon any offspring of mine no matter how much I don't like their mother(s).
If I do go, I'll message everyone by Jan 1st and stop any new chats/post from then on.
Also to the "women" who read this, let me know what you REALLY think about me.
I can take being told if I'm not liked, or uninteresting, but PLEASE for those who do take issue with me, AT LEAST GIVE ME THE COMMON COURTESY OF TELLING ME WHY!
I cherish ALL of my convos and friends here as it's the last place I can genuinely talk freely with others (especially women), and if I go/ask to far then you're free to put me in my place as you see fit, just please let me know why at least before doing so.
But with that said, I just want to tank those who did read all this "mess", and lament the loss of the reall Xham all those years ago when it was "Just Porn, No Bullshit" while everything now is "Just Bullshit, No Porn"...
I salute those few brave souls who do stick around, it's hell to navigate though the spam and drama here but for those I've seen pull it off, have found those whom they now forever claim... I just wish I could say the same after all this time...
I won't say I've wasted my time here, as I do have a few friends I've made... but God have I wasted my emotions and sl here, there's no doubt about that...
Anyway, I wish you all the best, and that ya have better luck than me going forwards... and if ny luck changes I'll post about it... but I highly doubt it.
- Jason aka Jack
P.S. Also Xham needs "Pregnant, Pregnancy, Pregnant Sex" tags... and also alot of security and bug fixes.
I genuinely love breeding, pregnancy, bringing new life into the world, and everything associated with it more than ANYTHING...
But at what cost...
It genuinely has ruined me and runnied my one last chance at happiness for the last time...
I can't take being miserable for it causing me to be, too damn horny, to the point of warding off gals I do genuinely like because of it.
I'm tired of being misunderstood as a sex fiend, when I mention I still have my "v-card", because I only really want to give it to one who'll carry my offspring 1st.
I'm tired of being shunned when ever I mention my destitute living conditions and funds, or that I'm autistic among other things...
I'm tired of having an overactive sex drive and no way of dealing with it...
I'm tired of all this really... but I've gone on too long to quit now and I'm "too hard wired" to do anything about it, so it's time to face the music and realize...
I'm a breeder... who will probably never breed.
Honestly I should just "get things over with", "hire" someone to take my v-card for me, then leave this site for good as clearly "honest , open, and genuine" guys like me aren't "wanted" here anymore... I had my chances and blew them to smithereens and at the rate things are going I'd best just give up and focus on living the sad existence I do till I no longer can...
I'll probably leave this page up as a "momento of my hopes and dreams", and will give my contacts to the few that do want to chat with me otherwise... I'm still thinking about it but honestly the writing is on the wall for this site anyways so might as well go "while it's still around."
Anyway, I'm sorry for those I bothered or offended in my zeal to breed in the past/present till now... I'm just "too damn honest" for my own good and I "have no filter".
If I do stay I'll just wait for those who have interest to message me 1st as I clearly can't be trusted to do so.
It's a damn shame a guy like me who's biggest dream is to breed with those who will let him, and especially marry one who'd love me while doing so for the last 15 of my 31 years of life on this site has been throughly broken emotionally by gals here, while any gal willing to do the same can easily do so in less than 15 min of joining...
I'll give myself till December 26th to decided whether I leave of stay.
If I stay I'll "double down on breeding" and give up on "saving for the one I love" as clearly that hasn't gone well once so fuck it, I'm done and the consequences be damned, I'll figure something out afterwards if I do knock them up dispite me not really wanting to be woth them. I may be a "jackass" but I won't abandon any offspring of mine no matter how much I don't like their mother(s).
If I do go, I'll message everyone by Jan 1st and stop any new chats/post from then on.
Also to the "women" who read this, let me know what you REALLY think about me.
I can take being told if I'm not liked, or uninteresting, but PLEASE for those who do take issue with me, AT LEAST GIVE ME THE COMMON COURTESY OF TELLING ME WHY!
I cherish ALL of my convos and friends here as it's the last place I can genuinely talk freely with others (especially women), and if I go/ask to far then you're free to put me in my place as you see fit, just please let me know why at least before doing so.
But with that said, I just want to tank those who did read all this "mess", and lament the loss of the reall Xham all those years ago when it was "Just Porn, No Bullshit" while everything now is "Just Bullshit, No Porn"...
I salute those few brave souls who do stick around, it's hell to navigate though the spam and drama here but for those I've seen pull it off, have found those whom they now forever claim... I just wish I could say the same after all this time...
I won't say I've wasted my time here, as I do have a few friends I've made... but God have I wasted my emotions and sl here, there's no doubt about that...
Anyway, I wish you all the best, and that ya have better luck than me going forwards... and if ny luck changes I'll post about it... but I highly doubt it.
- Jason aka Jack
P.S. Also Xham needs "Pregnant, Pregnancy, Pregnant Sex" tags... and also alot of security and bug fixes.
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