Who am I?

I am male
I love wearing pantyhose and Stockings
I love high heels
I love dressing as a sexy woman showing off my legs
I like having sex with females
I love shaved pussies with less hanging skin in the middle
I wanted to be a girl from when I was a kid so I could wear nylon and dresses
I remember clearly I always thought if I were a girl I would always, always have pantyhose or stockings on, never bare legs
I couldn't understand why girls don't wear pantyhose/stockings more often
I am a soft person, not manly man hairy face and body with rough manners
I scape argues and let the other person win if they thing that count as winning me avoiding the argue
I am married to a woman and have kids
I revealed to her that I love her in nylon more but She doesn't like pantyhose and stockings much
She never puts them on coming to bed for a sex and if I want her in stockings I have to put them on her
I enjoy sex with her 10 times more when she is in nylon, and cum much much more
I revealed to her after few years that I like to wear them too by putting on a pantyhose for sex
She didn't fight my fantasy but she never welcomed it
I wear pantyhose under my pants going to work almost everyday wondering if anyone notices looking down on a bit revealed at my feet
I won't enjoy fucking a man I think but I will enjoy if a man touches my leg in stockings defiantly
I may also enjoy but haven't tried seeing a man cuming for me, on me, or maybe in me!
I think women fake orgasms and men are enjoying their cum 10 times more that what women claim.
My wife fakes it too I think but I go with it
I have feminine feet, Legs, arms and ass I believe and I love my body so much
I like my arms shaved but my wife hates them that way. She is ok with my rest of body being shaved but not my arms
I went for it anyways after couple of years that I did shave my arms for the first time and she was mad at me
She was mad again and threatened me with a divorce but I didn't step back this time and told her she can do anything she wants
She said I have sexual issues and problems because of my love to nylon and shaved body of mine
Few weeks have passed and she hasn't shown any interest for sex. Me neither. I can enjoy my body without any help
I could give her joy like before liking her for 10 minutes till she comes, real or fake, but as I want to be, with shaved body wearing pantyhose
I enjoy filming myself and watching my videos coming in pantyhose
I upload them here for those who enjoy watching me
now, who am I? Sissy? Gay? or something else?