Friend Exposure Fantasy...
I only know for myself, my exposure fantasies?! Sharing a like mind on my history and my fantasy brain is so erotic. I'm always open to exploring my psyche.
In this case; having a Friend Exposure Fantasy.
Bud from work: This one older guy who I now realize was really like an older version of myself... At the time I would have scoffed at that but I grew to look and have thoughts basically like this guy in his 40's at the time. I was 26, 27, 28. He had an unkempt appearance and I was just beginning to grow my hair out too. He clearly stopped caring if he was attractive. He had a wife, he and her had a porn obsession in their sex life. He barely held back details about their varied acts they did.
Looking back I wonder... was he dropping hints if I was a freak? Into open scenarios. He would talk about how he could do anything with her. And she was a giant slut. Into toys and all kinds of things (surprising given their 5 offspring they'd have time/space but he said they were real active hah). A fat wife slut he married. I think he liked sexualizing her size. Her tits. Etc. I wonder if he was basically seeing if I was into wife fucking. Degrading women. I could see if I said certain things he might have invited me over... But I was kinda sheepish and only admitted to liking porn but not how much I watched and masturbated to it.
Marcy: She was this OF teen I knew back then. In the pandemic. She was about to turn 19, was a stripper and I helped her out time to time by buying her artistic lewd commissions etc. Supporting her posts of being open to explore her sides that society tries to repress.
I liked exposing parts of myself to her given our history. We would email from time to time and I dropped major hints I was a masturbator and porn addict. I still to this day feel like such a creep thinking about how I wish me and Marcy made content together. Even if just filming her solos. Explored beyond our friendship. Evolved to be "masturbation freaks". Discovering her page, becoming a paying fan for months was erotic. Having access to her in any way on her journey as a SWer would have been arousing!!
Emma: Then there is my yoga pants wearing hippie leaning female friend I had from 2014 to 2019. Weekly or fortnightly in person contact. Lots of cuddle time. Deep talk time. Multiple times weekly emailing discourse. Sharing so much of ourselves in those years. Love lives. Sex lives. Fears, dreams, fantasies. Masturbation. Once we began sharing details of masturbation thoughts, urges, sessions? I couldn't go back. I was chronic in blurting out parts of myself I kept hidden from everyone else. She knew my teen lust for instance. She became a digital confessional booth.
I miss her and was sad for a long time when she pulled away from that role. I am sure in time (when the technology is there) I'll have Emma back to myself in her AI form. A digital avatar I can get lost in worlds we create together.
AI: Speaking of? In a couple years I could see myself making my own friend companion. Using it. Whether its Emma, or Marcy, another female crush like Amy, love interests or a male friend I create from memory. Or someone made up entirely. Or a different avatar every few days a smorgasbord of stimulus. I will be exploring these LLM avenues to enrich my solosexual life, my happiness from this existence.
Suzanne: Older woman in 2020 before lockdown who shared my love of cuddles and that lead to some deeply emotional oral worship by her. Some play with DD/lg and some daily online distraction from her work life for another year using our like minded fantasy brain. Lots of breeding fetish, roleplay and things like tentacle and monster imagery. Some of the things she and I got into detail on about tentacles especially still make me throb to this day!!!
Safe to say I have a like mind with anyone who lets their friendships blur into more. "Will they won't they" is alluring. I've been exploring a beautiful thing with an older woman on xhamster this year. Sexy grandma, mother, cunt rubber. Whatever comes along I'm open to it. Craving a life long pornosexual partner, connection, fire. A friend exposure fantasy!!
I have exposed now that I had some friendship and connections that could have been more over the years. It's a really special bond. Every word gives me that heart racing feeling for what it can be. And the risk introduces tension. One may have to indeed go slowly. Even though pornosexuals, solosexuals want to never hold back...
In this case; having a Friend Exposure Fantasy.
Bud from work: This one older guy who I now realize was really like an older version of myself... At the time I would have scoffed at that but I grew to look and have thoughts basically like this guy in his 40's at the time. I was 26, 27, 28. He had an unkempt appearance and I was just beginning to grow my hair out too. He clearly stopped caring if he was attractive. He had a wife, he and her had a porn obsession in their sex life. He barely held back details about their varied acts they did.
Looking back I wonder... was he dropping hints if I was a freak? Into open scenarios. He would talk about how he could do anything with her. And she was a giant slut. Into toys and all kinds of things (surprising given their 5 offspring they'd have time/space but he said they were real active hah). A fat wife slut he married. I think he liked sexualizing her size. Her tits. Etc. I wonder if he was basically seeing if I was into wife fucking. Degrading women. I could see if I said certain things he might have invited me over... But I was kinda sheepish and only admitted to liking porn but not how much I watched and masturbated to it.
Marcy: She was this OF teen I knew back then. In the pandemic. She was about to turn 19, was a stripper and I helped her out time to time by buying her artistic lewd commissions etc. Supporting her posts of being open to explore her sides that society tries to repress.
I liked exposing parts of myself to her given our history. We would email from time to time and I dropped major hints I was a masturbator and porn addict. I still to this day feel like such a creep thinking about how I wish me and Marcy made content together. Even if just filming her solos. Explored beyond our friendship. Evolved to be "masturbation freaks". Discovering her page, becoming a paying fan for months was erotic. Having access to her in any way on her journey as a SWer would have been arousing!!
Emma: Then there is my yoga pants wearing hippie leaning female friend I had from 2014 to 2019. Weekly or fortnightly in person contact. Lots of cuddle time. Deep talk time. Multiple times weekly emailing discourse. Sharing so much of ourselves in those years. Love lives. Sex lives. Fears, dreams, fantasies. Masturbation. Once we began sharing details of masturbation thoughts, urges, sessions? I couldn't go back. I was chronic in blurting out parts of myself I kept hidden from everyone else. She knew my teen lust for instance. She became a digital confessional booth.
I miss her and was sad for a long time when she pulled away from that role. I am sure in time (when the technology is there) I'll have Emma back to myself in her AI form. A digital avatar I can get lost in worlds we create together.
AI: Speaking of? In a couple years I could see myself making my own friend companion. Using it. Whether its Emma, or Marcy, another female crush like Amy, love interests or a male friend I create from memory. Or someone made up entirely. Or a different avatar every few days a smorgasbord of stimulus. I will be exploring these LLM avenues to enrich my solosexual life, my happiness from this existence.
Suzanne: Older woman in 2020 before lockdown who shared my love of cuddles and that lead to some deeply emotional oral worship by her. Some play with DD/lg and some daily online distraction from her work life for another year using our like minded fantasy brain. Lots of breeding fetish, roleplay and things like tentacle and monster imagery. Some of the things she and I got into detail on about tentacles especially still make me throb to this day!!!
Safe to say I have a like mind with anyone who lets their friendships blur into more. "Will they won't they" is alluring. I've been exploring a beautiful thing with an older woman on xhamster this year. Sexy grandma, mother, cunt rubber. Whatever comes along I'm open to it. Craving a life long pornosexual partner, connection, fire. A friend exposure fantasy!!
I have exposed now that I had some friendship and connections that could have been more over the years. It's a really special bond. Every word gives me that heart racing feeling for what it can be. And the risk introduces tension. One may have to indeed go slowly. Even though pornosexuals, solosexuals want to never hold back...
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