Update from me

As some of you noticed I haven't been active for a few years. Beside a failed attempt from 2 years ago, I was gone for 5 years. There are two main factors for that. The first one: xHamster's change of policy when it comes to uploads. When it comes to sex, I want to be anonymous. If my nudes are spread under my nickname - that sucks. But it doesn't affect me in real life. But honestly I was too proud of my achievements (or my hole) so my pride got the best of me and I caved in. The second reason is more personal and emotional - it's a crippling depression. I did not have the strength to set up a camera and some light. There were days where the pain from the intense stretching was the only thing that kept me focused. It kinda grounded me and turned my emotional pain into pleasure. These were the days were I did not know if my masochism was just a coping mechanism. So yeah - full identity crisis. Great! Sorry if you missed me and I try to be more active. By the way, I like every comment you send me and even if I don't respond most of the time I appreciate it very much.