The hunger

I have, as long as I can remember, always been a little perv. Getting excited about cleavage and up-skirt shots.
My mother forbade me anything even remotely sexual growing up, a picture of a girl in a bikini, magazines or comics were the girls looked to sexy, extreme guidelines that amplified my sense that something was not right with me.

I was completely heterosexual in my desires and never (as far as I can recall) m*****ed or experience any other outside influence, more than any other normal k**s growing up with a bunch of older cousins.

Yet my sexual appetite has only grown and taken me to places that I wouldn't quickly fess up to in open conversation. I haven't done all the things I fantasize about like, two girl threesome on just blow job, midgets, getting fucked by an actual guy and not just a dildo, this I'm actually not that eager to try because I'm not actually attracted to dudes but am curious of how a real warm throbbing cock and come would feel in my ass.
The fear of aids squashes that fantasy pretty much and my only option then is sex with a condom and in that case the better alternative is a woman with a strap-on.

I've always thought that there was something wrong with me, a product of the sexually oppressive environment I grew up in or just born with a sexual deviance After discovering social networks on porn I realized that a lot of people out there are doing the same stuff, so is this a natural thing that we as men just have within us.

Whatever the case, I now have been able to finally let loose and not feel bad about enjoying fucking myself with dildos. I hope to someday feel what it's like to get fisted or maybe even fucked hard.

You never know what the future holds, but I do know what my body craves.